**Well after 1 week plus never update, it time to update... hmmm i think my ankle had recover about 70% or so.. But my feet don know why keep on getting blueblack from walking too much.. i mean my ankle of course.. and still can bent to the side.. So i think more time needed to recover fully.. But is ok, i am starting my fitness training again... going running later at night... hahah.. cos now is 12.37am of 30th Oct le... and of cos.. HAPPY BDAY to myself... hahaha.. anyway that not important.. everyday is the same.. as long as i can spend my time with the people i love. I can enjoy everyday..
hmm, people tend to change as time goes by.. why do people need to change..cant everyone just be themself, like how we are when we are an innocent child.. wont that be happier.. why do we need to change ourself to entertain others. putting on a mask to hide our true feeling.. that is not our real-self..and everyone actually feel tired in putting on that mask, but why do we still put it on...
when we grow, we tend to think alot be4 making a decision.. is this good or bad..?? if the things that we want to do can make us happy, why don we just do it without thinking? is it becos we are sad that the doing may tear off the fake mask that we are wearing all the time? i don know... but what i know is, for me to a certain extend i am selfish.. I don deny the fact.. but i am also willing to give for my loves one, my friends and family..
After 19 years , do i really know who am i? or this who am i is someone that i created myself.. if so, where is my real-self.?but if this is my real-self, then what had i done in this 19 years? did i achieve anything? most likely, i had spend 1/4 of my life on earth..so wat did i bring to the people around me, my family, my friends, my love one, and the place i live in.. happiness?Sadness? or if i plus and minus everything, the value is 0.. if i am given a black piece of paper, and ask to write down what contribution did i contributed.I think high chance it may submit a blank piece of paper back... from the past till now, i keep telling myself to change and be a better person.. but did i do it? i don know... maybe i did, or at least i try..actually i scare to do alot of things... sometime i am really tired.. sometime i am really scared.. am i as strong as i project?.. hmm i don know.. haha.. to be or not to be.. that the question.. lol.. well don wry, i am not emo.. just trying to write down wat was on my mind.. hahah..
anyway back to my school life.. hmm, feeling that going sch is such a strange thing.. my feeling for sch actually change for this sem.. maybe is becos i study for 3 days per week.. so to me , everyweek when going to sch like just finish holiday.. so actaully i am not motivated to study.. haha.. but i am not a SLACKER... hahaha... UT is coming.. hence need to study and prepare for me.. don wanna to screw up my last sem.. And for FYP, is totally screw up.. haizz.. software part totally no improvement.. haizz.. i also don know wat value i had in the team..haizz.. think gotta stop here first.. since it so long post already.. haha..**
well next, i am soo soo soo excited for SIm 3.. must wait till my friends pass to me.. so need to wait till wed... but anyway, this few days i was playin dota.. hahaha.. well it is a good game as long as u don over play... TD is also a good one.. i like TD the most... hahaha... also got did weight training this few days... increase weight to 14KG already... hmm slowly train.. i think a few more week need to increase again. but need to buy.. no $$$.. hahaha.. so see how ba,...
Oh yea.. although this is like one week plus the new liao.. but but but... last monday derek bday.. so we went to watch movie.. hence I suggested to watch this" Haeundae: The Deadly Tsunami ".. while from it name, u know is something related to tsunami.. really i encourage everyone to watch.. some part of it is funny, some is thrilling, some is touching and some is sad... so yea.. go watch yourself would be the best.. hahaha..**
**Yo yo yo.. lol.. ok anyway yesterday was super fun... haha.. after soo long i finally ton overnight... and i NEVER slp until i reach home this morning.. that ia a great achievement.. LOL!!!this is becos in the past no matter how i will get some slp in the night.. maybe 1 hours or so.. but yesterday i did not.. haha..
ok , so yesterday me, ricky , jw and wei li meet first then go makan.. our dinner of cos.. then after that start the magic time.. we are like doing magic using poker card.. haha.. and the conclusion we get from last night is.. is all about your cheating skill... HAHAHAHA..
then after that went to meet derek at his house... so we slowly walk to his hus la.. then i think derek father can be a very good magican.. reason being.. he pawn us.. hahaha.. well only we all know the methods.. LOL!!.. ok so after that we did all kinds of things at derek hus.. like watch movie, eating, drinking.. and i found out something.. the game that derek suggest always let us see the " TRUE COLOUR" of a person.. hahaa.. so yesterday we play the monopoly cards.. hahaa.. super fun one.. i think we play from 2 plus to 6 plus.. and time really fly.. hahaa..
well after that some went to slp.. but i don know y i cant slp.. so i play game with jw... we are the only 2 left... last 2 man standing.. hahaha.. soon after that went home and eat and slp too.. hahaha..
well tml need to go sch again le.. morning pt again.. is good to have pt .. but is soo earli.. think i need to get use to it soon.. going NS.. is going to wake me up more earli.,. hahaha.. well tml i think also got events.. hahaha. so yea.. hehe.. stay tune.. LOL!!.. **
**Well currently still in sch... hmm feeling super tired and slpy.. today is the end of 1st week... hmm, although i only like studying for 3 days per week.. but i don know why i am soo tired after each day of sch.. just like yesterday, reach home immediately fall alslp... all the way till 6 plus..maybe becos yesterday morning PT too tiring.. hahaah..
This week of sch, seariously is boring.. everything that we study is soo dry.. everyday study about how hospital work, the different types of equipment.. haizz.. one moduel learn still ok.. all 3 moduel is learning the same things...
well life without NCD was super bored.. training was held on since they are having exam in sch... well wanna go back unit to train the cadets.. hahaha.. also very exicted and looking forward to my ncdcc camp at the end of the year..
hmm think my blog is going to die soon.. sch start le.. everyday the same thing and i don know wat to post liao.. hahaha..anyway next wait to the next post ba..hahah..*
**Lesson learn... Take care of your teeth.. Never take care , only one result will happen.. It make your $$ sing Fly Away... Well went to dentis just now, to repair my teeth.. do filling again as part of the old filling actually break. well let hope this one stay.. haizz. cost me $72.. there goes my $$$..hahaha.. anyway seriously i really hate to see denti, is SOOO SCARY!!!..haha.. i also don know why man.. maybe becos the rubber gloves..hahaha..
ok back to sch... today first day back to sch.. hmmm, feel kinda ok. the one month plus break passes so fast that i don feel like i am having holiday at all.. LOL!!!.. anyway some of my clsmate already starting to count down to the next holiday le. Which is 48 days from now.. HAHAH!!!that is a good way to motiva us to continu to study.. hahaa.. YEA!!! tml no sch.. great.. can slp till afternon again.. after today i am soooo tired.. hahaha.. not enough slp.. then wed is FYP day... kinda like FYP day alot.. cos is so relax and easy.. and is fun too.. lol. haa.
Today lesson was on bioimaging, faci is Vicent.. that GREAT!!can learn quite alot in his cls. and his cls is super relax one..hahaha. well first problem of the lesson, learn about the different type of bioimaging.. like CT Scan, PET Scan, MRI, X-ray, etc.. many many.. hmm, must put in more efforts liao. cos today i found out that i was playing facebook game in school almost the whole day.. hahah.. this is "GREAT".. lol.. **
**Super tired and slpy now... don know why... and the point is i slp till 2pm today then wake up.. and i am still feeling slpy here... maybe beos i slp at 4am plus last night..was watching some chinese shen hua show.. well seriously nothing to do.. be4 the sch reopen tml.. tml gotta have PE in the moning althoug i am having class at 9.45am.. which mean i need to wake up super earli...
well will try to slp earlier tonight,.. cannot slp at 4 plus again... if not tml 7 plus wake up confirm die one... hahaha...
Well tml first day of school is bioimagin.. hmm calucaltion again.. let hope first day i can don slp in cls... and maybe stop playing my game... LOL!!!..well it my final sem.. let make it a good sem... study hard... and maintain my GPA... cos finally my GPA is back to 3.5 after i study soo hard for year 3 sem 1... so must maintain.. cos at least it can give me a chance to go uni, if i want to after my NS.. I also not sure would i really want to go to uni anot... well i know that students life is always better then working life... hmm need to think it again... hahaha..
Well great, my tooth just break.. not the whole tooth.. but part of the tooth... and the things is i don know how it break.. hmm.. got to go for tooth filing again.. i guess.. haiz... sian.. well think that nothing much to update now.. so after tml my first day of sch then see how la.. **
**FINALLY!!! after so long i update again.. since my last update was 2 months back ba.. reason being kinda lazy to update... was busy SLACKing.. LOL!!.hahaa.. anyway alot of things happen in this 2 months.. but of cos i am not gotte talk things that is soo way back.. let talk about more recent things man.. hahah
OK First was the outing I had with my secondary school friends as well as my bros.. Photo will be uploaded below.. well went to east coach park for the outing.. we are having BBQ. although i never eat but it was super fun to start fire and cook.. hahaa.. lol... ok can so lame.. then during sept i went to east coast 3 times le.. hmm first 2 times did not go down in the water to swim.. finally during this outing i did.. haha.. thanks derek and jw for SWIMING and building our " BIG PROJECT" hahahhaah... we like no childhood ok.. haha... well i was not able to ton over night.. hence i go back around 9 like that..hahaha... overall, i like the outing and realy enjoy it.. realy hope to ton over.. but haiz..
next, it would be my school holiday... hahah i had around like 1 months plus of schol holiday and i did nothing other then rotting at home.. lol.. most of the time i been spending my time at home rotting.. haizz.. kinda boring.. but i also nothing to do.. so.. haizz..well and though out the month, i only get to work 3 time at Camp HA... too little camp for KI le man.. hahaa.. anyway really don like to teach pri sch kayaking. haizz.. is to tiring le...and all the voice soo high pitch de... and very de hahaha.. always teacher teacher...but working at camp HA is fun la... after like 4 months never work, going back there give me a good feeling...and i STILL CAN DO ROLL after 4 months. woooo i so proud of myself. lol... hahaha..i know it lame...
LAstly, my school gotta reopen liao... 2 more day and i am back in sch...well finally no need to rot at home liao... hmmm this sem i only need to study 3 days WOOOO plus fyp 4 days la.. but fyl do not count as study.. haha.. and i still have 1 days of rest at home.. that is sooo GREAT!!!...haahah.. the hardwork i put in during year 2 paid off...hahaha... this sem i am going to study HARD and of cos PLAY HARD!!.. before my NS i must enjoy myself to the max.. be happy.. things that i cannot change i will try to throw it aside... as things that gotta come will stil come no matter how much i wry abt it.. yea... life great..hahaha..
** The pushup game.. lesson learn DON BE BANKER hahah**
**Our Tent..Here come the skill i learn..**
**Group Photo**
**Yo Yo Yo, long time never update again.. Well done.. LOL... was kinda super lazy.. hahaha.. anyway today is my FYP presentation... LOL.. totally "exciting" ... of cos is not those exciting is something else..
So as planned me and my team meet in school at 7.30am.. Woo.. wake up 6.30am.. After 2 years plus, first time need to wake up so earli and report to sch.. hahaha.. anyway so everyone was suppose to wear formal la... So while I am walking to school, I was sweating like HELL!!!... when reach school shirt is totally WET!!. lucky I got wear singlet inside.. hahaha..
While walkin, i was thinking faster reach sch as sch will have aircon.. and well done, i finally reach school and found out that sch NEVER ON AIRCON!!!.. cheat my feeling sia.. haha.. putting that aside, we went to our allocated classroom to prepare.. and our hardware give stunt..
Suddenly cannot work again.. SHIT MAN!!!.. put after like 10 min of troubleshooting, it work again.. WOOO... soo exciting.. hahaha..
So the assessor come in, lucky we know one of them.. If all don know, they confirm will worry one..haha.. So presentation was pretty ok, as we predicted the possible question that they will asked.
After the presentation, happily went to have our breakfast.. all super hungry.. hahaha.. then went home la.. Oh ya.. also must take group photo.. ahaha..
then while i was on my way home, something happen.. But not going to said what is it.. anyway I feel that driving a car really need to be very super careful.. haizz... hahaha
Moving on, UT3 is COMING!!!.. omg.. lol.. anyway able to study 1.5 modul out of the 4 la.. so this weekend will be studying like crazy... hahaha.. that all liao.. hehe**
**Based on fan's request(RICKY)!!hahaha.. I will update my blog now..hahaha... well actually too long never update don know what to write hahaha.. well feel that my blog was kinda boring as every time also write about my days activity.. so should think of a way to change it..haha.. Hmm let think of a topic huh..
ai ya.. cannot think of any... hahaha.. so don care just write about my life la.. hahaah.. this few days think about quite a few of thing.. like thing that i regret in my life... I did alot of thing in the past that I regret now... When I think back, i feel kind stupid and silly..regretting why I had done all this thing in the past... haizz.. but I am still bless, becos my life is still colourful.. As long as I got that light which I am holding now... I am not afraid anymore. I want to hold this light till the end of the world.. My life will become black and white again if this light go off...
quarrel with parent again... haizz.. also don know why i always cannot control my temper and do thing without thinking..why i cannot be like when i wear uniform and in ncdcc.. When I don my uniform, it like i totally change to another person. A person that think well. A person that can control my temper. A person that is SO strict at everyone.. haizz.. Personality spilt liao hahaha..
anyway, this few week got no UT. so basically will try to relax myself as much as possible.. But hard la.. cos fyp is killing me .. so many things haven do, and time is running out and don know how to present during week 15...haizz.... going crazy le... hahahaha.. **
**FINALLY!!!...WOOOO.. after 5 very stressful days.. finally can relax le.. why right.. this is because for the past few days i had been studying very hard...cos i have 3 UT in a row.. haizz.. that is soo stressful... But this time round i study really hard..Spend at least 5 hours a day to study.. for project, for chem and for signal.. chem is the KILLER..hahah
anyway after the UT, i found out that signal was actually the killer..sudenly ask us to 20 point DFT.. i was like totally stun there... hahaha.. don know why... study so much.. test stil cui... hahahah.. lousy me...hahaha.. anyway school is getting boring and more boring.. now is already problem 11.. 1 months plus till sem 1 end.. time realy fly.. which mean 7 more months i will be going for my NS already. kinda sad .hahah.. lol... nvm.. let enjoy now.hahaha...
Well yesterday attended to school fitness program.. at most the whole school male is going.. hahaa... then never go cut CE point somemore.. soo wat lo.hahaha.. but is also good that force us to go.. then i tot they play play only.. in the end they really call army PTI come and train us... lol. then today whole body pain.. but good la.. mean muscle is building..hahaha... ok gtg to do my stuff le.. **
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