Gone forever!?

7/31/07

**well well well...I am SOOOOOOOOOOO Tried...so many thing to do...This week ar book by NCDCC ar....Today go back help out..then thus ,fri ,sat and even sunday also go help out in NCDCC....So tired...Because of the NDP as well as the EP day lo...well actually i like to help out in NCDCC....but becuase everyday night i watch tv show till very late then not enough sleep ma...hahaha....i plan to take lot and lot of photo on sat and sun...hahaha...then i will put it on friendster and blog...hahaha...after 2 year going to Ep day at cck again...hahaha...miss those time..last time i go i as still a cpl now i am a clt...big different...well too tired to write anything more..see ya bye...**

..Life..

and I miss you already

7:20 PM

7/27/07

**well after all those days ,i finally have a choice which make me feel better...hahaha..well i don feel so sad liao...but of course still will sad la....well i told my friend once..."it seem that i cannot run away from sad..."well she reply..."can but you need to make a choice"...well so it seem now i had make a choice...haha...well my life is about civil defence...well so i am going to use what i had learn in civil defence and apply in my life...
Of course i will follow our NCDCC 5 core value which is still NCDCC...but what does it stand for..well it stand for
Noble
Caring
Disciplined
Courageous
Committed
Yes i am going to do this....i found out that i don have a disciplined life....why???well maybe i am too slack ba....well so now i am going to re-disciplined myself.....so that i would try to keep my mistake as low as possible...well i agree to this line saying that"Make as many mistakes but do not make a same mistake"..well i think is very true...but i don't think i will work work on me...cause i had make too much mistake so cannot...i must enforce it myself...and keep as low mistake as possible.....hahaha....
then well this few days get lots of photo....photo of lot of courses i take in the past...like USAR and CDHG....well it bring me back to then..thinking of all those rescue mission and that that..haha...looking forward to the firefighting course at the end of the year....well i start training already...hahaha...k la that for now..see you next time..well enjoy the photo now....

and I miss you already

10:43 PM

7/25/07

**Hai Hai hai...this is such as boring life....yesterday i was thinking what did i did to my life...in the past it is so wonderful...what happen now...it all mess up....so i really follow the past routine....sch home sch home...no life...well I don know...i really want to find my life...find my meaning of life...is NCDCC my true life...well i like ncdcc...i can do anything for ncdcc...but that only happen when there are ncdcc event / training...when there is no such thing what will my life be....i don know...well tell me what can i do...well i want a happy life....my friend once told me...it a matter of choice of what kinds of life you want...Now i choose a happy life....going out with friend...slacking at home...anything that will make me happy....that the life i want...i want a meaning for my life....well this few blog...it seem i am complain and complain..nothing interesting....maybe i am still not use to it..to be alone...but i will get use to it soon..very soon...i will not give up....i will live better off....i can do it..i can do it...
well now is the part on ncdcc..yesterday get email from LTA tan ..he say got what UG conference...well only got 15 seat..then i ask my friend should i go....am i stupid or what..normally i would go..as there are less chance for you to go this kind of event....din know la...in the end i sign for it...then the conference is 3 day lo..OMG..well nvm...
then today in school super stupid lo.....we sign up for the talk then you know what...when we reach there they told us is full already...WTF.....they let people which never sign up one go in ..then we sign up one stay outside...what the hell...They never think de ma???they ask us sign up ..then sign up liao then let those never sign up one go in....what is this..this school is full of shit...everything suck...life suck....faci suck....everything....stupid....hai...that my life...for this few day....

..Life..

and I miss you already

3:46 PM

7/22/07

**Well yesterday went to play basketball in the morning..then you know what...firstly when we reach the basketball court it is already full of people...then we was like OMG....and what the hell where this so many people come from....ok then nevermind...then we go 755 play....ok leh..there no people...then play like 30 min hor then it start to rain...WTH....ok lo..then we go the shelter there chat chat lo....but well actually i like the chat chat part...it seem that it has been a long time that i chat like that with them....well now that my life have start anew ,it seem that i am more enjoy in this life style...the life with my good friend and best friend...ok lo...then we chat chat then rain stop then start again then we go chat again..then after that we go eat lo....
well then we went home and bath then meet up and causeway to follow weisong buy router and derek to buy his ns stuff lo...then we divide into team of 3 and jia wei and derek come my hus and alex and ricky go weisong hus then jun xian go home...we then connect lan then play dota and cs lo...but don know why take a long time already still canot lo...so sian...then we just say nvm lo...play with the people at your respective hus one lo... well so sian ar that part....then derek and jia wi at my hus we play and chat lo...fun sia....then we also take some photo..hahaha...well then we just play until 10 plus and hey go home lo....well they say next week go play pool..well not a bad ideas ...well let just wait and see....that all for now...**

..Life Full Of Fun..

and I miss you already

10:51 AM

7/20/07

**Well it has been a long time that i have never post le...well just trying to cope with my new life and also there is nothing for me to say...lol...well this past 1 week i was trying to find a new life...well then what is my new life....let get started....first i chat alot now on msn..chat with my friend and my classmate...well i feel better everytime i chat with them..thank to all my friend and class mate who support me....well i study with friends after school since we have UT and this also help me to forget everything...then i also started my PT plan...hahaha...trying to cut down my weight now...start to train by running and doing push up and sit up....then after that went to play & train basketball with my friend...well actually this training plan is both me and my friend do it together....cause i know that if i do it alone , i will surely give up...hahaha....
well actually after interacting with my friend i found what they call life...it not alot...maybe just abit...well when i spend time with them...you really don know time pass...hahaha...then well when you judge a book , mostof the time you are wrong...why,i found out abit later then other inlife.actually it was tis incident...i was in a lift with another ex-evgian...then i always tot that he is a guy who will like make fun of me cause of my cca in evg...well you see ncdcc was just set up a few year ago and when we first start up we was make fun alot...well i care alot as i care for the cca...i train the cadets hard because i want to prove to other that we are not bad...we are as good as the other UG...well get abit side track now..well back to topic...that day i was wearing a ncdcc shirt...then he started to talk to me..."you from evg ncdcc right?"well at that time i was shock..i always tot that he would make fun of me...but he didnt...then i reply then so on la...well you see everyone grow up already...maybe i am not grow up enough to understand this...maybe i m still too native....
well next event...i am not the saddest part in this world...well i talk to one of my classmate in class...well we two is talking our failure relationship...well when i say mine...of course i was sad then so on...then when i heard his...i feel that hey i cannot like that anymore...he is more sad then me..but he is still moving on...so i can't lose to him man....i also need to move on...well his story was that he is with his ex for 5 year...well it so long and you know what the worse is that his ex is staying just opp of him..well he get to see her every single day..OMG...what is this..is living in hell...but he still move on...i salute him man...he the man....hahaha...well so i am moving on too.. that the conclusion...
well next what did i never mention yet..well maybe just the tot left....well now i think that friend are so important...it is just part of your life...you can't really say that you have life without really have a friend...well then now say about my next few day plan....well my best friend just book out just now then i give him a call asking him if he want to play basketball tml with some of our old pals....then so tml going to play basketball and go out with friend after that...then next week still the same thing ba...go training,study with friend ,and chatting lo...well now also finding work...i am giving tuition in pri and sec chinese and pri math...well contact the agent already now still waiting...haha..k la...that all for now...last but ot least..thanks...all my friend and classmate..thank you alot...**

..Life Full Of Lights..

and I miss you already

9:21 PM

7/14/07

** well today nothing to do..so just slack at home...then don lknow do what...just surf net lo...finding ppl to chat...well yesterday ncdc was great....i taught the sec 1 first aid....they are so fun....haha...then ask them go our blog lo.. do quiz then vote also lo..hahathen life just need to go on...the world wont stop turning just because you are sad ...well so i just cant stop by this problem...life is about thinking of solution to solve problem....so i already solveit...the solution is always in front of me...just that i never use it...but now i am going to use it..cos it my LIFE..**

..Life Full Of Hope..

and I miss you already

7:46 PM

7/12/07

**why why why??this is the question i first ask myself when she told me to break...but what is the real meaning of i asking this question to myself....is it that i want to blame her...is it that i want to run away from the fact...well i get the answer....i am running from the fact....i am cover from the true...i am wandering around...meaningless....this is the life i am for this 2 year....but i have change.....i am full of energy..hahaha... i am going to find my life...my true life....yes i am going to ....my friend will support me....i believe...^_^**

..Life..

and I miss you already

10:14 PM

7/7/07

**tdon ask me why i put this pic...is just because i feel like putting it so i put it...his few day was really quite busy..cause got workshop in school then also need to think about ncdcc training...well go to workshop not to learn but to get point..what the....waste time only...actually what they teach i already know...go there waste 1 and an half hour....just to get the stupid CE point...then yesterday went to ncdcc training...then see the snco are all on time..so i was quite happy...but the only thing is that they are still not working in team...how what should i do...also there is a change in cadets ic...well we haven told them yet...but we officers have a long meeting...also on the ncdcc unit t-shirt...well it is quite cheap...$17...and i no need to pay...hahaha...then suddenly know the new that next wek the sec 3 going out...then i was like what the fuck....then i must go on next friday....hai..then now thinking of way to teach first aid lesson..thinking on how to make the lesson interesting abit...cause i know that first aid is quite boring if you just teach step by step..so how... what should i do....argh.....BTW i was so impress by myself on thus...i spend like only 5 min to solve half of the vb code then at the end of first meeting i was only left with the code of toss 1000 time...so in the end it prove that i was a pro in VB code.hahaha..no la just kidding....RP is really getting boring and boring...then met one year 2 student and he is the same course as me..then heard what they did in year 2 make me get sick....everyday is circuit..and use pbl learn...siao liao...hai..don know how to live in RP for the next 2 and a half year....hai....**

..Life Full Of Unseen..

and I miss you already

9:25 PM

7/3/07

**well today i was really tired...I WANT TO SLEEP...hai...this few days was really really very tired.....On sat,I went with my class on a class outing to sentosa...well it was super super fun man....i like to swim...haha..kena sun burn again....but never mind....then reach home about 9 plus..hahaha..then actually sunday going to play basketball but then morning get a sms saying that the game was cancel...well don't know what to feel at that time...cause really want to play with my friend but then feeling super tired so i just go back to sleep..hahaha...
today have the last UT2 then the ut was still ok la....still can do...well nothing to say liao..see ya**

..Life..

and I miss you already

12:34 PM