2/28/08
**today i finally know how to face her le...did i let go...maybe yes ba..at least i know where is the line liao...i read my friend blog..she was saying something call the bus theory...
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Thoughts came to my mind,those buses are just like people in my life...Some choosed to stop, some just Moved ON to the next stop...Some buses didn't stop because the bus stop didn't have their number either..."
yup she is right...not all the bus will reach the stop that you want to alight.. sometime you are forced to go down the bus because...the bus just never go your stop and it need to go to another stop...hence you will need to get on to another bus that will go to your stop..it no use to think why that bus will not go to your stop..there is no use to ask if that bus could just go a little further...because in the end you still need to get down the bus...so maybe the well i am in for the past 6 month...I am near the top le ba...at least i know i am facing the problem and not running away from it....no matter how sad i am...no matter what it is..i must carry on...i must give my best..i must try using everything i can..to get out of the well that trap me for so long...
Just like the song on my blog...
除了想你除了爱你
hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情
不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆
不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你
不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
But anyway today for a happy day for both my shazwan"s"...hahaha..both of them are promoted to WO...they are now the highest rank for the cadets in the unit...they will be my left and right hand...and together we will bring my unit to a higher level...If i can ,then i must, if i must then i will..**
..这种回忆
不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣..
and I miss you already
8:17 PM
2/23/08
**very very long since i last write my blog...i don know is it too many thing to write and i am lazy or is it there are nothing to say anymore and hence i don know what to write...but no matter what is it...life must still go on and must still stay strong at all times...that what people always said...but well it is easy to said then done..hahaha...DPDP ma..hahaha....during this time...there are lots of things happen around me...regardless it is on me, my friends, my work or my cca...there are just too many thing...too many thing to make me feel that i am stress out...but also due to this thing ..i grow..i did really grow... I miss a step in the past and fall into a dry well...and i try and try...use all my efforts to climb out of that well....but everything i fall down again when i reach a certain height....then someone went by and give me hope...i tot that person is going to let down a rope to assi me in climbing up the well....but due to lots of factor.the rope are just to short...but there are people by my side was helping that person to build the rope and let the rope be longer....but one day ,the rope was keep away..it was taken away..there was no more rope...i finally had no choice but to face the well myself....i tell myself i must get up no matter what...i try and try and till now i haven fall back in...i hope i don fall back in....i will give nothing less than my best...to get out of the well...hahaha..sound like a story..but that is my life this day...**
..Choice In Life..
and I miss you already
6:39 PM
