**Yo, yesterday intended to post one.. but in the end too tired and lazy.. so never post...and yesterday my Psychology UT was like CMI... lol... totally cannot make it la.. haiz... although there will only 3 question.. but the 3 question was already a killer.. just hope to pass this UT 3 and relax liao.. Next sem take Project management as a freely choose... Hope that that one is easy...hahaha.. Don wan to see my GPA drop you see..haiz...
well time passes very fast.. In RP, it is alreadt problem 12 already... 4 more problem I will need to said bye to my current classmate.. Well kinda not bear to said bye... Going to RP become a happy thing when I get to learn with my current classmate.. or i could said, we learn, play and joke together.. hahaha..
learning in rp was finally fun abit..since i go into this cls.. hahaha.. and today first time bring my poly friend to my house..which is the 3 la.. Chee san, bo shen and siew mei..cos seriously we have too much time to use during our second break out..
oh.. think should start from the morning ar.. today is linear circuit... then the topic today is Laplace transform.. WTH.. totally never learn be4...sian.. so basically we are struck there like don know howla.. until we ask the faci to go through the first question to get us started..
well actually after you understand the concept ar.. everything is so easy la..
but since is math ar.. practice still need to come in de.. So need to practice alot more... so that i wont forget this laplace transform...so actually by the end of second meeting we 4 already understand this laplace transform liao la.. so we have 2 hour to go for our lunch and slack..hahaha..
so we went to 883 for our lunch...hehehe... then after that bring the 3 go to my house lo..they they they....

They just come and sit and chat and slack only la... hey hey hey.. got both guys and gals.. so don think too much.. I am NOT the only guy..hehehe.
so just crapping in my hus until like 1.40pm then slowly walk back to sch...hahaa... **

**haiz... Sch life is getting boring.. But thank to the 3 fun clsmate.. Life was much more easily.. N they motivate me to go to sch.. I think if they never go sch.. i also wont go sch.cos meaningless la.. Do the same thing every single day.. No life at all..hahaha..
anyway today was PCB..hahaha.. Change of faci.. Stupid lo.. Different faci different standard they want...said different thing.. DO different style...Follow which one.. ai yo...haiz...
anyway today was slack... only need to submit the layout.. no ppt needed to be done.. Which is the only good point for this new faci..hahaha
then Chee San, don act smart in the future hor... lol... See la.. now other ppl memory card inside your lappy cannot come out liao la.. See how...hahaha.. ok la don soo bad..
cos she wann check if it is the memory card problem as my clsmate psp cannot read it.. SO she with good intention..But mayb she don know la.. so become like that...hai... but never go Fujisu ba... they open your lappy and help u take out de.. Good service..^_^**

**Hais Hais Hais... My UT today die ar... don know how to do sia... I open the UT, was stun by the first question.. It seem easy but i don know how to do it... Y....ARGH...basically my whole cls die la... Just guess answer and right in.. And type in the fomula onli... Hope to get some mark out of it... This sem GPA sure drop liao.. OMG!!!!..haiz...
Mayb I did not study hard enough ba... haiz... I think no need aim for UT 4 le ba.. cos UT 4 will be harder then UT 3...then most likely also die de ba... haiz haiz haiz...wat to do...
Btw, wanted to post this very long liao.. but also forget..I have my FYP team liao... and already know my FYP project is about wat le..Is to design and make some equipment that will detect brainwave..or something like that.. hahahaha..so hope that I can do well in my FYP ba...
then today go running again..YES YES YES...today run 2.5 round nope stop.. hahahaha... in total run about 2.8km.. cos everyone is tired ma...hahahaha...But well mayb going run again this few days... if not need to wait till sat liao..hahaha..ok la... that all for now...**

**Actually wanted to blog yesterday, but was too tired after remaking my blog design.. Cos i act smart, never save when teaching ricky ow to make a blogskins all that...then accidentally press save change...then die.......so no choice lo... hahaha.. reach home and remake my blog.. omg...hahahaha...
Anyway yesterday we have a BBQ gathering..hahaha... Well meet at around 11 plus with ricky, jun hao, jw, mei mei, alex and ws... then already started craping while waiting for the bus liao..hahahaha...then went to sheng siong to meet others... which is mark, daryl, yu ting, shu qi, hwee sian...soo many ppl..hahahaha... then go in to shop for wat we need for the bbq....well they really discuss alot on wat to buy ,well I keep quiet at that time.. cos i never eat de ma.. so never realli join in the discussion until it was at the tibits areas.. where I become alive..hahahaha.. lol..
and something funny happen.. While I go ATM with someone la.. to withdraw some $$$.. but hor the someone just keep on trying to push his ATM card in la.. Then i see, hahaha.. Cos he put wrong side.. SO i correct him.. But don wan said who the someone la.. U know who u r..hahahaha..lol... But cannot blame cos everyone got their first time.. So don do it wrong next time ok ricky... oppp..hehehehe...
Anyway after we buy all the stuff we go to daryl hus liao.. at his hus we will slacking , playing flash game, Naruto 3, and of cos singing...Daryl is always with his guitar..he play and sing at the same time.. wondering y i never learn guitar..argh..should learn man...I realli wan to play and sing.. cos the feeling is nice when u can play your own music and sing along...Well I will see if i have any chance in learning it...hahahah..
Well then following our real goal of the thing which is BBQ...hahaha.. but it was raining... so we hold the umbrella and start our fire... and using plastic table cloth to make shelter.. Well sound like a UG BBQ.. where everyone is important to get the tasks done..hahaha. anyway start come and go and come and go.. then in the end food cannot finish and everyone started to play already..We also got help to celebrate ws and jun hao birthday.. but both of them share one cake la.. cos no $$ liao... hehehe..
The fun part was at the swimming pool where we trying to push one another into the pool.. hahah..mark kena.. and mei mei is voluntary herself into the pool...hahahha.. ws too.. At the end everyone was somehow wet even abit.. but it was a fun one...
Then today wake up around 1 plus, it will be a study day for me..for my test tml as well as the test on thrus... hai... test test test when will it stop... sian ar..hahahaha... **

**Well hoping that my blog will be alive all the time.. don wan it to die just after changing the blogskin..hahahah... but i think after sometime i will just slack again..hahaha... anyway just now go run with jw, ruyi, jean,karen.. Well i should really train myself once again... my fitness really drop like don know how in this 2 year..haiz....sian ar... but just did break my limit and run 3 round and walk 1 round in total.. which is 3.2km.. well intend to run only like 2.4 but in the end was"force" to run the last lap.. well not really force by other, is force by my pride and guiltyness.. seeing other no matter how tired and continue make me feel bad... so i run the last lap... after running do quite alot of push up.. around 40 plus ba...hahaha.. cos wan to win jw..hehehe... jia you to myself and good job.. I will continue to work harder and run more.. My friends pls motivate me ... cos i very easily give up in running de... hahahaha
well then today lesson in RP was a tired and killing one..hahahah.. well today is linear circuit.. which i like the module quite alot as the faci is good and the learning environment in cls was good..everyone in my team will put in alot of efforts in learning and understanding the problem...
Today was on the switching regulator.. OMG...was like super hard but i did catch the ball from the faci by the end of second meeting.. the killing part was actually not the problem but was the going through of the worksheet 4 and 5 in the workbin...totally kill all my brain cell.. i think the whole cls brain was dead after that..hahahah..
after that went to 883 with chee san, siew mei and bo shen to eat lunch.. becos boshen need to get his PSP after 2 weeks of waiting..hahaha.. I like my year 2 alot..both my sem cls was good and realli do not wish to change cls again...
hope that in year 3 can stay in this cls but i think is most likely immpossible..Well it is a system in RP and this is life... everything come to a end no matter is good or bad ba... So that y we should always be looking forward to the new tommorrow.. Better thing may happen and bad thing may come to an end..^_^...**

**Long time no update blog liao..hehehe.. got ppl feedback le.. so must update..hahaha..well this few day was rather a standard types of life for me..I am actually doing the same thing everyday... Life is boring and colourless.. Everyday wake up, and go to sch... after sch, go home online and watch anime and slack until 6 plus.. Then take nap till 8 plus.. wake up eat and watch anime and then slp again till tml.. and report to sch again..
Everyday is the same... there are no colour.. feeling dull...
Well sch life was still the same.. Copy and paste life.. well kinda good and bad.. well good is because everything is so easy.. just go to sch and slack.. I mean realli slack and ask for ppt then just present and then get the grade for the day..hahaha...
Bad is becos to really learn, you must realli put in your own efforts in doing the research and study.. if not UT sure die..hahha
and well kinda happy because I did pretty well for my UT2. . get a B+ for sci..so hoping that my UT 3 is also around this grade then my sci no need to wry liao..
hahaha..
And btw... friendster was ok once again.. actually it has been ok for some time le.. just now then blog it.. hahaha.. all my friend was back..that is good.. but this time friendster really did crop up quite alot.. may be due to the virus ba.. not sure also.. but good job in trying to recover everything back..hahaha...
Then just now in sch nothing to do..so was finding blogskins.. well actually yesterday i was thinking of changing my unit blog skin.. but cant find any suitable one.. as it is a UG..cannot be too informal ba.. so still tying.. so meanwhile my unit blog..tahan ar..
but in the end find blogskins for my own blog.. was quite happy to see the result after it was done.. although some effect I want to do was unable to show due to some code error... Well.. but overall is good.. So pls comment on my blogskin.. see where can improve de.. tag me.. then i see wat i can do..hehe..^^**

**Friendster cannot go in..sian ar...nothing to do now... well just now was talking to shazwan bin sapuwan in msn.. he was my WO in my unit..but currently on his way to become a clt.. talk alot on the clt topic..hahaha...just wish him luck in wat he wanted to get for the course and be a good clt in the future...
Well just now stop blogging for awhile and went to tidy up my room...and deco my room abit.. hahaha.. paste my ncdcc ranks on the wall.. the past one la... well recall of all the things i have done in those ranks.. was kinda funny , happy and sads..hahahaha..and also paste others thing..
but confirm not those girls photo.. I am a good and inncoecent guys...wakakaka.. lol...

anyway today in school learn about power supply... well was kinda of easy and ok la.. but the stupid lab equipment was making us crazy.. all don know how to use..sian.. is like the circuit soo easy to build..but when testing all don know how to use the equipment.. argh..need lab lesson to teach us how to use it man...hahaha...

well today in sch was rather quiet then the normal self.. hahaha..actually i also don know y... just don feel like talking in sch today..hahaah..then my clsmate said...don dare talk to me.. cos my face black black....lol.. cos i too much sun tan liao ma.. that y black black..hahahah...

well this few days was thinking about my life.. hmm..well preparaing for a change now... restarting my life... finding the weakness.. kill it..and become a better person...
i know that i had alot of weakness and bad point.. easpecially is my temper...once i lose control of it.. that it.. haiz.. must think of ways to change it.. by controlling it wont help much..cos i can lose control of it..**

..Learn my mistakes, and start all over again..

**waking up at 3.30 pm today... thinking of wat happen last night..still feeling lost and scare...
i don know wat can i do now..after one night of slp... well a little bit of calmness came back... wat kind of person should I become.. can i be a good person ... haiz...
well it is raining heavy now...don know when will the rain stop.. well if it does not stop then cannot play bb le... long time never play le...haiiz...
actually I also don know y i am here now... should i be slping now or should i be watchin my anime now...
A Fireman's Prayer

When I am called to duty, God, whenever flames may rage;
Give me strength to save some life, whatever be its age.

Help me embrace a little child before it is too late
Or save an older person from the horror of that fate.

Enable me to be alert and hear the weakest shout,
And quickly and efficiently to put the fire out.

I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me.
To guard my every neighbor and protect his property.

And if, according to my fate, I am to lose my life;
Please bless with your protecting hand, my children and my wife.

..Courage..

**I never know wat i do was causing more trouble then happiness.. My stupidity cause ppl to get more irritated and tired...I always think that wat i do was right.. I always think that everyone will need care...but i forget the limits... i forget to do the right thing at the right time at the right place.. all i know as to follow my feeling... which make no sense at all.. I did not put myself into other ppl shoes... I am such a selfish person, such a dumbass...
Now, just like the fire already started buring.. Wat I could do is just to put out the fire asap.. to minimise the damage.. There will confirm be damage done.. but wat can i do to make it to the smallest possible damage.. to be true , i do not know..
I am lost now.. becos wat was in my head all this while was wrong... wat the hell I am doing....y do i always need to face this.. y y y y y y y y y yy y y y y y y y y y y y y y ........
well done ben..just too well done liao.. u all soo lousy in this areas.. just give up la.. right...y go and bang the wall...know liao still go.. feel the pain liao still go....stupid...
but do u think I wan that to happen.. I JUST CANT CONTROL!!!...if i can, i wont be like that..
Am I ready to care for someone?
Am I mature enough?
Am I silly?
Am I stupid?

I don know...**

..This Time, I really got lost on the road call Life..

**It been a long long time since my last post...well cos too lazy liao..anyway.. this days was kinda stress.... sch life is getting harder and harder.. UT keep coming out and it seem that I am unable to do well in my UT... reason..not sure.. i got study but why still like that... oh ya... the question come out is out of the 6P..it was rather some knowledge that we need to research on ourself...haiz...but nvm.. I will work harder to get the bext result i can...I promise u le ma...hehehe
well next will be the kayakiong thing le ba... well at first tot that evg will have it in nov for their 1-star..but in the end.. due to some edusave problem.. we need to postpone it till nxt year..same as pioneer..nvm.. I will wait..and be a good coach for them...hahaha

well then yesterday went to celebrate Yu Ting Birthday..was we plan a very stupid thing.. we plan to give her a fake and a real celebration.. We make paper cake, paper money ,etc...then play those chanting song and burn infront of her... as her celebration... lol....it look like so real la... alex and zilei go buy flower somemroe..hahahaha....funy sia...then we just walk away after buring..hahahah..then me zilei wei song was prepaing the cake...light the candle..then yuting come.. we said.."Hey the thing we burn to u , is here...hahaahaha...funny...and have a good time eating and drinking fake coke...cos it taste super strange....
after that was a singing session..just sing and sing and sing...then play a few fame..what, pesi cola...,123 woodmen...then sing to continue game.. but the last game we play was the most fun and meaningful one...we play true or dare..but in the end was just a true game la...cos every choose true...hahaha...well learn alot from each other...hahaha..well no more details...^^case close here....
and very imortantly, must said thanks to JW....he is really my brother...for the sake of me..he go buy chicken rice although he already buy a bowl of mee...and at night i walk home.. he come and peix me walk home.. best sia.. thanks...^^**

..To Be a good person, You must Know Yourself well..

**yo yo yo... Now i am in EVG sec... blogging while my cadets are all slping in the tents.. lol....well not slping now. cos going to screw the cadets at about 4 plus... hahahaha....well yesterday or i mean on my birthday.. thanks to my bros and good friends celebrate for me..Thanks to Jw, Wei song, Ruyi, Mei Mei, Shu QI, RIcky, James, Sharon, Wei Li, Alex..Hmm never miss out anyone right.. if i miss out... then sry cos my fault liao...

hahaha..really like the cakes alot...and i will keep and " play" with the 3 toy car that come with the cake..also the "Gay" guy who pbring the happy birthday banner....then really thanks to mei mei for the drawing...you confirm spend alot of time on it de lo... jia you in thinking of your business ideas...tml confirm your teacher will approve one la..don wry too much...

well now ar.. thinking of who to promote who not to promote for the camp... haiz... headach ar...well thinking of going to slp now to slp for abt 1 hour..if possible..hahha..cos hor... i don feel tired at all .. so i think tml i reach home i will knock out immeidatly la...but here are some photo for my birthday...**
The SHOOTER!!!!



sAID nO EVIL AR....


RIcky what are u doing to SQ???????

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Name:Benjamin Peh
Age:19
Horoscope: Scorpio

Present
I am a ....
*Senior Cadet Lieutenant*
*Certify Level 1 Kayaking Coach*
*First Aider*
*Certify Basic Cardiac Life Support Instructor*
*Grad From RP,Diploma in Biomedical Electronics*
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因为想你而更寂寞，
所以，我一天比一天寂寞，
一天比一天想你。

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