**Yesterday by right got Project UT... But due to UT Client problems... so UT was... CANCELED!!! WOOOO.. got pro and con la.. haha... pro is that UT got postpone, I got to study more as I really not very confident in project.. con is don know when it postpone till and may add in more problem for the UT.. hmm...but overall was ok la... yesterday by right plan to run with jw.. but he last min PS me..haizz.. nvm.. so i run alone... pretty ok lo.. got improve..hahaa.
then today once wake up go and cook my breakfast cum lunch first.. while waiting for my rice to cook.. study for chem UT.. really study wor.. hahaha.. do revision question some more.. hahaha. should be pretty fine during UT ba.. Hope so... don know why... once i enter year 3, i don feel confident in class as well as preparing for UT... hmmm is it my own imagination or is real.. anyway... i must really put in my efforts and study hard.. i must maintain GPA.hahaha..
then went to have a nap.. hahaha.. raining day are good to slp..have a nice good slp.. hahaha.. then went to run again today.. but today is with jia wei and derek.. hmm.. today cannot said anything ... my running cmi today.. caused is just after rain. then is very cold... then i think did not warm up properly... when i start to run.. i feel super cold... then after 1 round i cannot make it le.. so i stop. cos really super super cold.. lol... then went to play basketballl at 888.. weili come after that.. play alot of match with the people there.. quite ok.. tml will be studing for my Bio Signal UT which is on tue.. one week 2 UT really is quite Stress... but lucky after the week will be having 2 weeks of school holiday.. after chionging for 6 weeks finally get to rest for 2 weeks... Do not intent to work.. just wanna have enough rest and enjoy...**
and I miss you already
9:48 PM
5/21/09
** HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ... tml UT, study le.. but feel like never study anything... also don know why.. feeling empty about what i had study.. haizz.... how how how.. really wanna to do well in my UT.. must maintain my GPA..hahahaha.. well this few days feeling tired in the morning.. Like not enough slp like that.. hmm.. slp soo much still not enough.. don know what to said.. lol.. ok la.. let do a quiz that Sam tag me to do..
Name anybody from A-Z!
A: Jia wei B: RIcky C: Chee san D: Shu Qi E: Derek F: Mei Mei G: siew mei H: Ruyi I: James J: Xin Rui K: Ronald L:Angeline M: Iris N: wai sian O: alex P: Jun Xian Q: jun Hao R: Karen S: Zilie T: Yu Ting U: Jun Yuan V: Victor W: Weili X: Bifei Y: Ryan Z: Sam 1. Can N & L be together in BGR? Erm.. No Way cos they are "sister" LOL!!!
2. How is Y related to you? Friends
3. Does S know Z? Nope
4. If C betrays you, will you kill him? Erm is a She leh.. hmmm.. I am not very sure.. LOL
5. If K steals your boyfriend, what will you do? Haha... Erm.. I do not have a boyfriend.. I am not a GAY..haha
6. If B tells you that he has a crush on you, what will you do? Come on, Is ricky my bros man.. I believe he is not a gay..
7. Will you & M get into a fight? No.. Wont de..
8. Who does A have a crush on? WOW.. Hmm cannot tell
9. If D calls you a bastard, what will you do? Call 999
10. What's the relationship between you & E? Derek is my Bros...hahaha
11.What's your dogs' name? Don have any
12. Who is J's best friend? erm.. I don know..
13. What colour does Y like? well done.. i also don know
14. Where does S live? Same at north zone..
15. Did you & C have a fight before? erm No..
16. Who is H's best friend? Me la.. LOL
17. What can you say about N? Sporty?
18. If Q tells you she has a crush on you? How many time I need to said.. I am NOT A GAY.. and Jun Hao is a Male
19. Who is G's idol? How I KNOW??
20. Tag some peepo to do this quiz
-Ricky -Jia Wei -Derek -Ruyi **
and I miss you already
8:47 PM
5/19/09
**Saw jw alex jx doing this questions..hahaha.. so also wanna try.. yesterday actually wanna write le..but in the end lazy and tired.. lol... so today then write.. "If you are left with only 30 days to live, how would you live with it?"
Week 1 Day 1 -Be alone. and think of all the things i regret in my life and list it down. -Think of all the things i wanna to try out but have yet to do it. Rest of Week 1 -Go and see what can I do about those thing I regret. -Tell the Girl I love that I going to die. and ask her to be my GF for the rest of 29 days and don tell others about my condition. -Quit my School of course. -Start to sleep only 5 hours per days.
Week 2 -Go out with my loved one (if I have) -Go out with my bros -Do anything I want -Buy anything I want -Be crazy and wild. -Play all Height elements activity
Week 3 -Record down what I have did in my life. Happy and Sad -Write birthday message for my Lovers and Bros , Sis for 20 years and make sure they will get it every year -Take LOTS of photo -Write down my Will
Week 4 -Cancel my hp -tidy up my room -Transfer all my money left to my grandma -Visit Fire Station -Visit my primary school , secondary school teacher -Visit my Wushu Coach.
Last 2 days -Leave my home secretly at night. If I have a lover.. -Meet up with her -Go to a beach and camp there for the last 2 days. -See sunrise and set -Leave this world while resting on my lover leg. If I don't have a lover.. -Go to a place I like most. -And wait until the moment is up
and I miss you already
6:54 PM
5/14/09
**Complete my 3rd run after restarting my training.. hmmm... what can I said?? I think is hardwork really paid off... Giving Up is just wasting your efforts that you put in.... Why do I said soo... Cause it is just the 3rd run since i restart training and I can see that I had improve alot... If During the 2nd run , i give up half way.. I don think just now I can complete my run... And just now really thanks Derek alot.. for running behind me during my last round... I been forcing myself.. Mind over body... IF I think i can, then I can do it... if just now, I give up during the last round and stop to walk.. I will be regreting now.. wasting my efforts for today run.. BUt thankfully, I did not... During the last round there are a few reasons for me not to stop.. 1, derek was behind me.. cannot stop..hahaha.. 2. Thinking that I can't be a firefighter if I give up so easily.... 3. Seeing myself step by step going toward the ending point.. so cannot stop.. 4. I wanna to improve myself... hahaha... some researcher said, when a person think that he or she cannot make it already and should stop at that point.. actually the fact is, his or her body still can go a few more times further... So people MIND OVER BODY...hahaha..then after running when to play basketball awhile.. with ricky ,mei mei , wei li and of course derek and jiawei which join me for the run.. but JIA WEI NEVER RUN.. STOP LOOKING AT US!! hahaha..
hmm then this few days of school was pretty fine... erm, can understand what I am studying.. just that cannot anyhow "take leave" .. as each and every lesson is link to another.. So if i take leave once.. there will be alot for me to catch up... so cannot..hahah..then next week i will be having my first UT already... must use this weekend to study hard... also to do one more task... this few days planning about rearranging my room.. erm.. actually is cleaning up and reposition my stuff... wanna make my room a nicer place to slp in.. LOL!!!... so this weekend will also be my cleaning day..hahah.. hmmm.. i think that all for now.. so yea...hahaha.. **
**A few days never update le.. cos nothing to write about.. anyway, I just came back from my jogging today. Of cos I bath first before I blog la.. haha.. hmm just now was super tiring.. omg.. after like 2 weeks plus never run.. running became a very demanding task for me.. haha... sad.. must train more.. alot more.. cannot everyday after sch and go home slack liao.. must run run and run..like running for your life..
just now I was running my last round.. and from a distance I saw the ending point.. I am already at the point of dragging my body... enduring the pain from my legs and tummy...but suddenly a quote appear in my mind... " If you think that it is too tiring, too difficult and wanted to give up, you can't save a life"..This was actually a qutoes in a rescue show.. It was filming about the rescue team in japan.. How they train normal firefighter into rescue team. And this qutoes was actually paste in the trainees room on the door.. so everytime they leave the room. they see this quotes...So I was actually thinking of this quotes in my mind, and it was pushing me to finish my round.. when I reach the ending point.. I was happy but painful too... The pain make me can't even stand up.. so I must train more...until i meet my target...
after the run went to fitness corner and continue to train.. did some sit up, pull up and push up.. hmm after that went to 888 to buy some drinks to replace my lost of water.. thanks jw for running with me.. Now really no show to watch liao.. In the end I went to find 2 very old but nice show..which is 《包青天》系列全集 & 《肥猫正传》..
Althought this 2 show is very very very old.. but really it is super super nice.. I like 包青天 is because i like the way they solve the crime.. and sometime when they did the crime is due to some very very sad story.. but no choice. For肥猫正传 is because the story is very touching. those we watch before should know the story line so i need not explain here.. hmm that all ba.. going have my dinner now.. **
and I miss you already
9:19 PM
5/5/09
**Ok, just finish eating my lunch?..erm cos in school never eat..super super tired now..this morning wake up already very tired.. totally don feel like waking up.. but still have to.. so drag myself up... and went to school... and well done.. the topic today is totally CMI...really need to chiong all the way de lo... lunch also no time to eat..even don eat lunch ar.. by 3rd meeting, the works still cannot finish lo.. haiz.. now feel like fainting liao.. super super super super sleepy... think that tonight will try to sleep early ba.. if possible..
hmm actually wanna to update yesterday one.. but seriously was too tired to do so.. lazy.. anyway , yesterday was chem... and problem 2 is talking about all those intermolecular forces... the differents types.. then got what polar thing... then still got what shielding electron all thats... did super lot of research.. but lucky i got alot of "resources"... hmm those in RP should know what am i talking about.. so i was able to live yesterday...
then today was the unlucky day... No resources at all.. that why need to chiong soo much la... haiz... still got NCDCC things haven do... sometime is forget due to tiredness.. sometime is really lazy to do.. that y... hmm must really do this thing within this week... hmm that my aim for the week.. lol.. **
and I miss you already
5:19 PM
5/3/09
**Well this morning actually intended to go for a morning run.. in the end... never as at first i told derek to miss call me when he wake up.. so in the end i wake up at 7.30am then see no miss call so i went back to slp.. and it become a chain effect.. as ruyi was waiting for my call too... and jw sms me at 9plus asked if we are stil running and since i recieve no call so i said no..hence in the end no one go for the morning run...
then slp until 1 plus then wake up... hmm. kinda tired and feel like slping only... anyway wake up le... was watching 法医X档案..was a super nice show... maybe in real life we had never see be4... but it does not mean it had never happen.. just that we don't know only.. anyway after that went to play bb.. reason being , on friday i ps jw never play with him.. so must go play... must be fair... in the end never play a match at all... just shoot shoot and do some lay up... then after that was talking only.. it good to chill out and talk... at night... when the wind blow and you just sit there and enjoy the wind... it kinda nice... that why i like to walk home at night alone... of course is when i am not tired... as when i am alone walking at night... listening to the music play from my hp... enjoying the wind blowing on me.. thinking about what i had done in life.. is kinda enjoyable..
anyway tml is monday again..meaning need to report to sch again... tml i will be having 9.15am class... so intend to had my meal in sch rather then waking up earli to cook.. anyway like to eat ice cream this 2 days.. maybe becos weather is hot ba... **
and I miss you already
11:02 PM
5/2/09
**After seeing Jw repeatedly doing the quiz... I also cant control myself and go and do the quiz... but i think that it is true till a certain extend only..As some the answer is really not true... hence i will include my answer for those I think is not true...
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Actually I do not really mind you are smart, serious or determine anot. But it true that I don't judge a book by its cover.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. This is not correct. If I know that I Love that person I will commit myself already.. I believe no one can really understand another person 100%.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? I don't think I like to flirt , reason being I hate people who flirt and treat relationship as a toy.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. Yes Education is important but i won't force myself to study things that i do not like
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. Yes the scare of failure part is correct, but i would still pursue my dream career no matter what.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Yea, that all... well anyway today will be a study day for me.. maybe.. hope that after my breakfast cum lunch which i am going to take now.. I will have motivation in study my sch work... as i do not want to be studying at the last min be4 UT... it year 3 already, do not want to screw myself up... **
and I miss you already
1:44 PM
5/1/09
**Back from shopping... well as i need a new bag really... my converse sling bag really cannot make it le... haiz.. so change to brought a backbag.. is time to use a back bag le.. using a sling bag had always give me a bad shoulder ache... so now use both shoulder should be ok le..well at first the auntie was saying it was $28.. but she reduce the price to $26 before i even ask.. but i told her i will around first.. well went around and saw nothing better... so went back to that shop and buy it.. also went to buy a calculator which cost around $17.. no choice.. as i think that i really need it for my year 3... every day in sch i need calculator... so really need to buy one... a total spending of les then $50.. which is good.. THANKS JIA WEI , for accopany me to buy .. and sorry to ps u... cos i really very tired.. Reach home, start to do on my FYP things...found out that it is so difficult.. block diagram is ok.. but for the user interface.. it really give me a headache.. as i did not see a ABR systems before at all.. so I do not know which requirment is needed. did research but cant find anything...haiz.. anyway now left with the user interface, study as well as my ncdcc stuff.. should be able to complete ba.. i hope.. don have any motivation to do thing at all.. just wan to be quiet and stare into the sky...
today is holiday but still cant slp well last night.. and i wan to slp late today de.. but somehow i cant... i don know why.. soo tired everyday.. even during holiday... haizz... **
and I miss you already
5:18 PM
**Well change my blogskin...as got this feeling of changing it.. anyway, alot of things happen.. and it kinda let me understand what mature really mean...there are things in life that we can never escape..and we must always face it no matter what...it kinda sooner or later thing ba... that why people always said 是福不是祸,是祸躲不过 anyway is just fate.. i finally know what does losting your world mean.. what does 绝望 mean...and 在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一种无奈.
well this week only need to study four day as got labour day ma.. then friday no need go sch.., hmm just found out that my first UT will be coming in 2 weeks times... haiz.. time passes fast...
and year 3 is indeed a year that is very hard to cope... reason being, the topic is just too hard... is just the second week and i already start to feel that it hard.. like project management, i at first tot that it will be theory.. but in the end it has A math... omg... then other topic got like Goldman equation, etc... haiz...
then for fyp, today finally the whole team get to meet our faci together... as everytime there will be at least one member missing in the meeting.. and mostly is me... kinda guilty.. then today then found out our project is full of problems... haiz.. don really want to think about it..anyway this few day I will be resting at home.. and do a few things.. one: will be doing on my FYP as I am in charge in coming out with the user interface as well as our system block diagram. second: will be watching firefighter movie. third : will be doing on some ncdcc stuff... then fourth: try to study more about this 2 weeks thing in sch.. like what had i learn and if possible make some note so when UT come i wont die..
Anyway it times to slp now.. I am Mentally and physcially tired.. Very tired..**
and I miss you already
12:02 AM
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Name:Benjamin Peh Age:19 Horoscope: Scorpio
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*Senior Cadet Lieutenant*
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*Certify Basic Cardiac Life Support Instructor*
*Grad From RP,Diploma in Biomedical Electronics*
Reach home, start to do on my FYP things...found out that it is so difficult.. block diagram is ok.. but for the user interface.. it really give me a headache.. as i did not see a ABR systems before at all.. so I do not know which requirment is needed. did research but cant find anything...haiz..
