8/30/08
**well today was a rather rotting day for mi..as i spend my time doing nothing realli important other than doing my PP...was to wake up in the morning to play dota...but was too tired as yesterday slp at around 5 am...cant realli wake up....sry to alex, ws, ricky and jw....especically jw who morning call me...realli cannot tahan...than slp all the way until 12 plus...actually can continue to slp de.... but get sms from jw asking me to go IT fair..but is was too late already cos they already meeting up liao..than i haven even prepare a single thing...sian..so never follow them....hahahah..than rot at home lo...haiz...well edit my PP to the max liao..realli don know how to edit anymore...haiz..if kena rework again..what should i do..deadline coming up and PP is not done yet..wth...haiz..... wel after that went to read other ppl blog... read quite a few... and found a interesting topic..How did you spend your life? This should be the question that we should realli ask ba..right...
becos actually life is really very short..let us said that we all can live to 100 years old.. that would mean we had a total of 36500 days to spend... but how many people can really live to 100 years old..so let us be stingy abit and said we can only live till 70...that would mean we had a total of 25550 days...and i am already 18..meaning i already spend 6570 days... and left with 18980 days... and out of this leftover, let said i use 8 hour to slp everyday... that would mean effectively i would left with 12653 days to realy do my thing... but during this days... i still need to eat, study, work, training... so how many days are actually really left for mi to do the thing i want...
maybe i should really think of what i wan most...whaat i need most..but we all know that not every plan we make will go according to what we think...alot will backfire...and we will force to change our plan.. this is life..
people alwyas said life is like a drama.. but i don think so... drama is something that is plan and the one who plan it and the actor already know the conclusion.. yes you can said it is alike becos that are rise and fall.. but in drama that is all plan... but in life...no.. and how sure are u everyone really have rise and fall in their life... Life to me is never like a drame..never...
well than now talk about the 6570 days that i spend..did i really spend this 6570 days meaningfully.. i don think so.. i am wasting quite alot of time already.. but why am i still like that..wasting my time... life is really short... everyone should live their life to the fullest.. do the thing you want.. so that you wont regret....**
..Life should be Meaningful..
and I miss you already
1:00 AM
8/28/08
**today BB was very song ar...hahaha....long time don have this feeling liao...today me and jw superman...win 3 in a row...hahahaha..keep it up man...we can do it...today wake up rather earli to do my PP rework..seriously I am not sure how to rework my pp liao...i edited according to the comments given..but i am not sure what else can i edit on...haiz....if i kena rework again...WHAT TO DO!!!...sian ar....than today after bb jw and ricky suppose to report to my hus...hahaha...but in the end ricky kena ks by his father..hehe...so sian hor...so in the end onli jw come my hus...we play dota and kena OWN....power sia..hehe..but nvm..is a good learning lesson...and than watch anime all that...and now singing in the middle of the night...omg we are crazy...tml still need to go play bb in the morning...4 more hour to go and we r still singing...siao right...but nvm..hehehe...ok la...going high again..bye...**..Night Life..
and I miss you already
4:21 AM
8/26/08
** Long time no post liao...haiz..cos too lazy to post le....too many thing happen and i am just too tired to said...but i know today from 5.45 to 7.30 is my happiest time during this few week...alot of sad thing happen which cause me to be down to be emo...but the time just now realli brighten up my day...u ask mi why i am willing to tell u.. u should know ba.. your position in my heart now....don need said too much on that..anyway..i so sian now...PP kena reject and need a rework..haiz...think now go slp le..tml wake up.REWORK!!!..**
..SIAN..
and I miss you already
11:46 PM
8/24/08
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2:30 AM
8/19/08
**Well well well school holiday soooo sian ar......argh..all my friends are still having their exam only RP have holiday..so outcast...argh....today slp until afternoon than wake up..cos wake up earli also nothing to do..well than watch anime lo...and do report...omg, my PP so simple..how...later kena reject...argh...i see my friend do until like siao kena reject... me do until like so easy..scare kena sia...argh...
but anyway at night went to play basketball....with jw, ricky and ws...derek was SUPPOSE to come but he was too tired le so in the end never come...but ruyi and jean got come..hahaha..to sit sit...hehehe...than rain sia..and i don know why both ricky and jw sooo hot..soo tired today...haiz...hahahaha...no la..is a good way to train myself...if everyday like that good sia..i can train..lol...but i found out that my basketball skill drop alot.. my lay up everything is gone...haiz..too long never touch bb le...haix...what to do...
than after bb went to carpack with ricky and jw and have our "clubbing" there...lol...sound so wrong....hahahaha... no la.we there do all kind of stupid thing...handstand, kick here and there and of cos training of basketball la...hehehehe...
2 more week to school reopen..don know what can do now...haiz...sometime i feel that what i put in is always wrong... I am not talking about relationship or what...but cannot said what is that here... just feel that everytime i put in more efforts i get shit out of it...haix...pushing blame is good mah???why people like to push blame so much..cant they just accept the blame and let the matter rest..pushing blame will not let the matter rest but make more people sad and angry and the matter become bigger..hai...anyway..tired of saying it anymore...
enjoy the 3 siao guy now..but don be shock....hahahaha..**
..有了兄弟 , 绝对无敌..
and I miss you already
3:24 AM
8/16/08
**Argh too tired to update everyday now...too many thing happening too many thing upset me...but what cannot be done is already done...let forget it...
anyway yesterday was a very high and sad day for mi...in the morning me, ricky,jw, alex and wei song went to the party world..hahahaha...and we sing and sing and sing..first time hear wei song sing sia..hahahha...me ar..sing sing and sing and my voice go out of track all the time...argh...all the glass break....hehehe....omg..i think party world regret that i go ba..hahaha....
than we also took alot of photo..although alot cannot see la...hahaha..cos is tooo DARK...hehehe....
than in the afternoon rush to NCDCC...is my sec 4 POP...it seem so long yet feel so short...four year just past since i first join ncdcc... I from a Pte to now S/CLT....it been a long way...not easy...stress, tired,fun, interesting...i can serve NCDCC for 1 year plus more...than I need to go NS le....hmmm.....now that my sec 4 had pass out...feel kinda sad and happy..happy that they finally complete their life in ncdcc as a cadets..sad that had to see them go...well don know what to said liao...so...see ya..**
..Laugh, Smile, Cry, Sad..
and I miss you already
1:06 PM
8/13/08
**today never went to sch..cos need to go job interview with angel they all...she got go leh..i where can don go...hehehe...at first realli hope to get the job...but in the end never..at first hor...all very scare wont get the job the..cos never hit 18 ..even a few month also going to birthday also cannot...sian lo...but in the end they said need to wear those office pant and black shoes than if buy ar...waste $$$...than work liao like no work like that need to but this buy that...so in the end all never work...
but never mind..at least is a chance for mi to see her...^^..
ok let start from this morning...actually be4 going for the interview... i first went to SP to meet up with jw and ricky..than meet up with angel and ruyi they all...first went to the lib to study..of cos is the SP lib..than they all study and i do my ncdcc stuff...after awhile they said need to change place...than we pack and change to a room.. than the room realli is like our de lo..no ppl de...than they all each took one table to study...than me ,rick and jw share one big table...than i was doing the ncdcc thing again...of cos..well i fell that room was a very good place for ppl who want to concentrate on doing his or her own thing...next time got chance want to go there again...hahaha...
after the jean come all that and went for the interview lo...and the story is on top of the post..hahaha...after interview we all go eat and they shop lo...than me, rick and jw go test the coat in one shop...hahaha..all become handsome guy...lol....
than after that went home lo....
while we are on the train...i feel sad..i don know why...the moment i said bye..my heart break apart...even when i am typing now...my heart is in pain...how i wish what i dream is real..realli...how i wish...if one day it become real, i promise....................but what i can do now is to dream onli...is kinda sad to think abt it...haiz...going slp now..so that i can go to my dream faster...**
..So near yet so far..
and I miss you already
1:17 AM
8/12/08
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..My feeling..
and I miss you already
11:59 PM
8/10/08
**Yesterday was national day...finally after months of training, the parade was finally over...every sweats is paid off by the cheer of all Singaporean...when the parade going to start, sky is dark and look like going to rain...but the officers said...train for so many month liao..why don chiong...hahaha..when they started to march off...the rain start...the rain never stop the heart of the cadets...they are still marching in pride...the rain add more emotion to all the people that take care in the parade in all kinds of form...no matter is the one who is marching or the trainer...it just give them the feeling of not giving up and just carry on no matter what...maybe is the sky hope to cover the tear of all...becos is kinda sad to know yesterday was the actual parade and will not see each other after yesterday...and also after the parade had a short reali short party...and took photo with the new ncdcc commandan, 3 star general , Parade Commander, RSM..hahaha...also some cosplay...enjoy the photo...
With Parade Commander and reserve RSM.
With RSM
With 3 Star General.
With NCDCC Commandan
WIth Cosplay
BEfore march out
With the NSF who IN-charge NCDCC
after that reach home around 9 and eat, bath within 15 min than rush to meet derek to write the card and than rush to cosway point to meet ruyi they all..hahaha...when reach there took photo with ruyi le..hahaha..oh..forget to said..yesterday was ruyi birthday too...hahaha...everybody hormat her leh.power ar...hahaha...than after that got a movie session..at first was to watch some muder movie but book wrong ticket than see "The Love Guru"..well at first they said was a super lame show and had no meaning at all...
but after watching, i feel that was some meaning in the movie...although it is really super lame and funny...
it is asking people not to think negative and must think positive...and face the problem...don run away...Stop hitting yourself, Stop hitting yourself.WHY are you still hitting yourself? TM...was one of the book title in the movie..quite lame when u watch it...but is true...sometime we really hitting ourself even when other ask us to stop...don you think so...
than also got one is some steps in solving a person problem..don know the actual word but i rmb like must first be distrs , than must go back to childhood, than do something one than last action..
ya..sometime distrs is very important..if not we are just thinking about the problem and forget what is important what is not.. and sometime we always think of what other said but forget" You are You.TM"..is just 3 word, you are you.TM.. but why can't everyone do it...it is easy to say than done....You don want to face it..but is true....
times for me to think about it huh...hahaha..i power ar..so little thing also can trigger my thinking...
than after movie, jw and derek come my hus slp...and ya..realli slp..they reach my hus..in less than 30 min both down..OMG!!!..in the end i need to watch the show myself...sian....hai..than morning 9 am all go home...and JW BROKE THE GLASS CUP....but nvm..my one still ok...hahahaha...anyway after they go home i went back to slp and slp all the way to 3 plus..hahahah...than around 4 plus she online..chat for awhile than she need to go prepare for her bro bbq..so she offline...NEXT SAT can see her...hahahahaa..SOOOO HAPPY....hehe...well what to wear for that day???hmmm...hahahahah..think too much...
well than at night go play BB with jw, well not like last week....we never train..feel realli tired this days...must rest well when holiday come..2 more day to my holiday.happy and sad again...happy becos finally complete my year 2 sem 1 and sad becos i am going to change cls again...so sian...every sem change cls...haix....but nvm,,just hope that my next sem cls is the same like this sem..everyone is so helpful and friendly and fun..hahahaha...
than ricky also got join the bb at around 8.30pm..hahaha..he just back from ah ma hus.....than went to buy drinks shortly and have a chat...erm don know what to write le...let me think of life again then next time write something with my meaning...hahaha..good nite going slp now...**
..Give me a pound. Lock it down. Break the pickle, tickle
tickle..
and I miss you already
11:21 PM
8/8/08
**08/08/08.. today finally the Parade is over....WE HAD DONE IT...me and my cadets...we had done it...we fulfill the motto...we impress the sch...with PRIDE AND HONOUR....this does not come easy..although it is just 2 word...but we put in how much sweats and time to get this 2 word...after 4 year of NCDCC..finally, we are the Guard-Of-Honour...FInally we are better than the other UG...ppl respect us...and from now on... we will keep thing this way..we shall do the best..and be the best...although we did the parade already..but i believe, if u are once a GOH, you are always a GOH..if you have the chance standing on the parade ground as a GOH..this mean you are a person with Pride and Honour...a person that can take hardship...a person that never give up so easily...we may not know until someone told us...really..how many ppl can endure the 2 whole week training just before the actual parade....not many...who is willing to put in so much time and efforts for the actual parade which last less than half an hour...is the person with Pride and Honour will do it..
At the point of marching out of the parade ground, I who lead the march past..I am feeling strange...I feel happy when I know we did a great job and the parade is ending...but I feel sad to said..we had no more chances in putting on the number 1 and march with the title of GOH...it will take another 4 year to do so...so ya...EVerything end with the halt i did when I reach the CD corner..I take off my cap, with 2 feeling..happy and sad...I see the cadets sweats on the floor and shirts...They look relive and happy...everyone is tired, but everyone like it...strange..tml is the real NDP and i still need to go..so ok end here first...photo will be upload asap..hahaha...**
..with Pride and Honour..
and I miss you already
7:28 PM
8/5/08
**yo, I think I am back...I am alive again...hahaha....Thing are not getting out of control...it is just my silly, stupid and no brain thinking...it is so stupid to have those thinking...this is a lesson learn and it make me one step more understand her...everyone is different, we must understand that...therefore we cannot assume...and becos of my confuse mind, I forget that not to assume, i forget that we should be calm when handing thing that is out of control...U forget all...So this is a lesson learn to me..NEVER NEVER FORGET AGAIN...but really yesterday was the happiest day i had for this few week....I am a reallife example yesterday...which apply to this line.."What if the only person who can make you stop crying , is the person that make you cry?" Seriously what will you do in this situation...no one know until you get the taste of it...and sometime the stress of it is so unbearable...but everything is ok now...it is the end of my misunderstand..becos i feel ok now...everything is ok in the end, if it is not ok than it is not the end..also thank to my 2 real brother and 1 "she brother" ..hahahaha...they given me alot of advice and support..although some of the advice i cannot accept..but still, i thanks them alot...although another 1 brother is not there, but is ok...cos he ns ma...than don distur him...but he is still one of my BROTHERS....hahahaha..anyway going to do quite some things with my holiday..but don reveal first....hahaha...than yesterday went to have bb training with ricky and jw again...hahahha..but i think the sunday one more good...cos sweat more..yesterday one still ok leh...hahahah..but argh....nvm..don talk abt it...hahaha...abit siao siao now...than went to carpark after that and we 3 are having "FUN"there..hahaha...hey hey, don anyhow think ok....we are MAN...we like gals...so don anyhow think think....after that jean,kaen,james,ryan also got come..but we still having fun ourself and they sit there and do their talking..hahaha..really enjoy yesterday...i put down the stone in my heart and laugh it out...the moment is see a new *******..i am so happy...running up and down my hus...hahaha...lol...than yesterday RJ question was quite interesting ..it is about goals in life..hmm..mircocontroller need to talk abt goals in life..hahahah..but anyway..my goals in life is actually very very simple..i don wish for lot of money...i just wish for a life that i like...I wan to slide down the fireman pole whenever the call come, get on the engine putting on the gear and rush to the scene and do everything i can to rescue the ppl out of the fire....also have a wife and get settle down after one promotion... hahaha..sound simple but it is hard to do..but everymind, i will try and try...because Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger...fail is ok, as long as it does not kill you..and my faci reply me with a quotes..i like that quotes..which is
"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."
..Michael Jordan
really like it alot...it really said that it is ok to fail yourself and other ppl...but the thing is that you must put in your heart in doing..therefore even you fail, is ok..everybody will see the efforts you put...hahaha..sound so old man..
ok la..i am going to prepare myself for the conbine rehearsal later..full dress wor..must take lot and lot of photo..hahaha...see ya^_^**
..Don't EVER give up on your goals! EVER!..
and I miss you already
12:51 PM
8/4/08
**Days are getting harder and harder to pass..the action that u did affected me so much...what can be done i had already done..it will depend on you to carry on..if one day , i give up, it does not mean you are gone in my heart.It just mean that I am too tired and stress to carry on and I will care for u at the backstage in life...and hope that u get the best in life...I know that worry abt this abt that is no use..it is just a wastin of time..becos no matter how i worry , the fact wont change..I cannot change the view of other ppl..I can only change the view of myself..So i am now trying to change my mindset..to change to no worry in life..although it sound so impossible..but it take time...I know that in the past, I said that to change a ppl mindset , it does not take a year,a month,a week...it take just a spilt second in life to change a ppl mindset...But he or she must be trigger by something...but now i understand sometime it is very hard to change a mindset..this is my weakness, i understand that.But I need time...and I hope I wont reach the day I need to give up...Thank jia wei, for talking so much to me yesterday...really he had change alot..he give advice, he give his thought and sometime he really need to think be4 he talk..so guys give him some time..he need it...than went for a BB with him...do sometraining..so long never do this kind of training liao...100 -ABC shot, 50- 2 pointer,15- 3pointer, 20- layup and than a final one on one with him...really need to improve my bb skill asap...and I going to slim down...must must must...changing worry to strength..i wont dream or hope to success, I wil success..If it is a dream, it wont success forever...so I don wan it to be a dream...it is a goals for me right now...and i muyst reach it...**..Life full of worry..
and I miss you already
8:28 AM
8/2/08
**this few day super stress...mostly becos of that matter...but really feel helpless..feel sad...but i know one more week..the fact that i wan most will surface out...soon...real soon...what i can do meanwhile is to worry and wait..haix..sound so stupid..but that what I am doing right now...thing are just not under control right now...
anyway Guard of Honour training was quite ok..can said good..but still not there yet ar...here and there quite a few of mistakes...guy must change ar...actual day coming already...also today wear full No.1 to rehear...hahah...cadets are so happy to be in No.1....walk also got wind like that...
than quite afew of my keyholder is sick..argh...haix...so many problem...
seriouly i don know what to do...i have no mood at all...realli...my mind is so tired...my body too...what can be done, what need to be done..i am confuse...and realli it make me tired of thinking...thinking of how, why, what...i feel like giving up everything...it came arcoss my mind...you never know it affected me so much with just a simple thing...it did..**
..你那么爱她,为甚么不把她留下.因为我留不住她
I LOVE YOU!!!..
and I miss you already
1:11 AM
jw and ber
me and ber..DON EMO!!!
ricky and ber
ruyi: the RA face
birthday gal KAREN!! or birthday boi????
James
Uncle ricky??
..因为寂寞而想你，因为想你而更寂寞；所以，我一天比一天寂寞，一天比一天想你。..
..有了兄弟 , 绝对无敌..
BEfore march out
