Gone forever!?

10/26/07

**long time no post liao..well i should said i am lazy to post...too many things is going on...i am just too tired...well I don know why...I felt that there is one barrier between me & and classmate...Well maybe I think too much but I won't care...Just feel that everytime I had a hole between me and my classmate...hai...
Then this week we already played 3 time of basketball already...we do training before starting a game...it was so tired...but that what we need to improve on our skill..cos I think that our skill really suck...tml we are going to play another one tml..hai...my leg is really tired..well next week finally no need to work liao...so good...hahaha..but that mean that my paid come later...hai...
Really don feel like going to school anymore...everyday is the same thing....hai...
Now it is about my NCDCC...i am really stress out in NCDCC...lucky today is the last training then for the next 2 month a can have a break...i really scare I will break down if there are more training....today conduct test...ok la...just feel that they are not up to my standard...they are still not good..they must wake up....but no matter what we do ,they just don wake up...argh...what to do....
then today promote the 8 SEC 1 cadets to become Cadet IC...then i look at my list again..I got a total of 20 people...but alots of them is just not up to standard...i am worry for next year...what should i do...I will only have 3 days to train them...is it enough??i don know...what should I teach them...my mind is just not able to think...i am stress out...why...i need to calm down and really think....what is the best things i can do now to solve this lots of problems....
I believe i can do it..and when i believe i can do it..then it will become "if i can then i must,if i must then i will" But I need a break first,I need a recharge phrase ....Let me RECHARGE....**

..Life..
"When you are angry of someone,you will need to think 10 years later will you still be angry of him.If you won't,then why do you still need to angry now"

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8:00 PM

10/14/07

**hahaha...I just change my HP just now....now I have a walkman phone...can count as my birthday present ba...after working so long..this may be a little present for myself ba...but i am sick...stupid flu and cough...cant take it man...i hate being sick....hai....I think tml i not going to work ba...too sick to work liao...then worse later the kid also kena..they exam coming...so better don sarbo them ar....hahaha....tml got school..aircon ...must wear jacket liao...hahaha...**

..Life..

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8:37 PM

10/11/07

**well life in school was really slacking..i don know why ar...after the course ar...i become so slack...everyday was playing game...then my team ppt never do anything...feel so pai sia....but my mind really cant think of anything lo....hai...well then my granddaughter remind me i cannot like that ar...so that the WAKE UP CALL...so I try to change it today la...well today got do work first then play game....so i think got improve la...hahaha...
yesterday our class 2nd breakout become photo taking session la....haha...class took quite alot of photo....hahaha...then after school go help out the questioning workshop...well i think that the last workshop is better..it is more fun la...then in the end nearly 8 pm then reach home sia....but at least got 3NDA point la....then NOv got CCA camp..don know wan to go anot....??hai...
then today go to a talk called"Wake Up Call"..at first thought that going for the EQ talk but too full la....so go for the "WUC"...at first I think that the talk should be very boring and nothing interesting...but in fact I found that the talk is meaningful because it actually did really give me some wake up call la....it make me think what is the meaning of life...what am i here for ...
well this question for me is really hard...so now let me crack my brain and think..hahaha**

..Life..

and I miss you already

2:37 PM

10/9/07

** sian sian sian..this few days so sian...after firefighting course nothing to do liao....hai...must ait until nest week then my ncdcc start again.....got the workplan thing....but after that they school holiday liao...then nothing to do again...hai.....but next year confirm very busy la...but now hoping that the officer drill master course faster come...but it on dec....hai... Last friday play basketball with my classmate..they are good la...then saturday play with jia wei they all...after start to play dota...our class now changing CS into dota liao....don know if the CS clan will still be in the class anot.....hahaha... hai today the computing ar...so boring ...cannot make it la..at first don know what it asking lo....then slowly and i mean really slowly then we understand lo....ha..the faci really is a sniper lo....killer la..... then tml enterprise should be better ba..hahaha.... get the photo taken in the FFC....hai don know what to said leh...this few days feel very lonely....hai...past still haunting me sian......hai...yes it had become smaller but it will never be gone...but what I wan now is to prepare myself to have a better tml...well I read this story and give me some thought..The story is called"Building House" "

An elderly carpenter was ready to retire. He told his employer-contractor of his plans to leave the house-building business to live a more leisurely life with his wife and enjoy his extended family. He would miss the paycheck each week, but he wanted to retire. They could get by.
The contractor was sorry to see his good worker go & asked if he could build just one more house as a personal favor. The carpenter said yes, but over time it was easy to see that his heart was not in his work. He resorted to shoddy workmanship and used inferior materials. It was an unfortunate way to end a dedicated career.
When the carpenter finished his work, his employer came to inspect the house. Then he handed the front-door key to the carpenter and said, "This is your house... my gift to you."
The carpenter was shocked!
What a shame! If he had only known he was building his own house, he would have done it all so differently.
So it is with us. We build our lives, a day at a time, often putting less than our best into the building. Then, with a shock, we realize we have to live in the house we have built. If we could do it over, we would do it much differently.
But, you cannot go back. You are the carpenter, and every day you hammer a nail, place a board, or erect a wall. Someone once said, "Life is a do-it-yourself project." Your attitude, and the choices you make today, help build the "house" you will live in tomorrow. Therefore, Build wisely!

" So now I am trying to build my house..I cannot let the bad weather affect me to build the best house for myself...because the weather will change from bad to good one day...so during this time maybe it will slow me down in building my house but it will not affect my quality of my house... **
..Life..

and I miss you already

3:53 PM

10/4/07

**well done...today I had completed my firefighting course....hahaha....today we did our final exercise...we all reach the leature room early in the morning...waiting for the course commander to give us the detail of the exercise....then the officer come in....then we saw..CPT Jimmy was the DO,then Jasper was the DRC...then Mdm,Clement Sir and Raymond was the sec com....then i join Clement Sir team...Section 3...
The officer then say the fire detail...it happen on the 8 floor,there are 3 missing people on the 9 floor and the worse is the LIFT broke down...oh shit la...then Section 3 in charge if resource...so we break our self into 2 team Clement Sir is Section commander 1 and bring Nelison up to set up staging point and I am Section commander 2 at ground setting up resource point...
It was super tired la...running up and down from 1st floor to 6 floor...with our FF gear...super tired....then the exercise was restart and we do it agaon...then the encik keep on stressing us....on shit...then finally we hear from the walkin exercise CUT..everyone report to staging point.....everyone there is to put down their BA set then just take off their helmet and jacket and just sit down....everyone number 4 was so wet la...it not water but the sweat....but finally we completed the last thing which is the final exercise....combine everything that we had learn and use it....it was tired but fun....then the stupid part come...we need to make up everything....we hate this part man....but no choice just do it...
Then was our POP...hahaha...passing out parade....we watch the video of our course.....it was funny la...but it was really a bonding time for all of us...we help one another in the course...we do not give up on each other....we support each other...then well we get our badge and cert...hahaha...then all of us march out of CDA together....hahaha...
but hai..tml still need go school....well going to sleep now...too tired...**

..FireFighting Course Siong but Shiok..

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7:11 PM

10/3/07

**Today was day 3 of my firefighting course...today was really a siong day but was also really shiok lo....today whole day was field training...so we start off the day by learning the portable pump in short PP...then we bring it to the open source to get water...but for training we return the water back to the source...so we lay another 64mm hose and connect from the PP back to the source..
Maj John was really very good in leadership..the order is clear and short...power ar him...then when the water is charge in...the hose fly like water dargon.....super power ar....hahaha...
then after that we went to learn and use the watermise gun and the impluse gun....watermise gun still ok la...no kick..hahaha...the impluse was the shiok one la....the back pressure was about 3 KG....then the weight ar...20kg was the container of water and air...then the gun 6.2kg...the total weight 26kg like that....then somemore we in FF gear...but overall was fun la....hahaha....
then we went to play the 64mm hose....the pressure was 10bar la...OMG....we all take turn la..all got control the hose...when one person on the hose..behind got like 4 person to support him la....but of course our Maj John is so power..no support..but in the end lost control...almost fly....then we all stand beside the hose then they on water curtain...and we GET WET...hahahaha....
the after that was the most siong part...BAPT....6 station....ai yo....first we must put on our gear and BA set full in 1min 15sec..Yes my group all did it...and i was the FIRST to put finish...hahaha...then after that went to tracking,cycling,climbing and pulling...the stupid endless ladder..really is endless...no ending like that.....then after that still need to go BA maze....so siong....then that end our day 3....tml is our last day....POP tml..yes yes yes...hahaha...but still need to complete the final mission....i think they confirm give us HRF...hai...very tired one leh....hahaha..k la..tml POP..go go all way...Fight Fire,Save Life We Are the ONE!!!**

..FireFighting Course SIONG but SHIOK..

and I miss you already

8:20 PM

10/2/07

**Today is day 2 of my Firefighting course..I can said I can be consider half death..today training really killing me and my coursemate la...morning to hose drill...with FF gear and helmet..super hot la..somemore under the hot sun....killing la.....then the helmet ar...so heavy la....run here and there...the 64mm hose ar...nearly 20kg u know....oh shit....
then after that we learn how to tap water from the nearest sourse....also tired la...the key set complete was so heavy la...i can't imagine we going carry 1 64mm hose ,hose set,6stricker,BA set run up to 9 floor on the final mission...will die after the mission...hahaha...
then in the afternoon still ok la....we control the CPL...my team siao one la....they want fully extend....then me and another guy control too fast...the thing shake and shake....somemore we at about 7 floor high la...super scarily...
then after that we go lay hose at different level..omg got....if got smoke ar..we confirm die one...cant even see the hose...then can FEEL only...OMG...then we keep the hose in special manner...drop hose from upper floor to ground level...so fun..,hahaha..but of course must shout command all that la.....hahaha....
then after that go in smoke room..totally cannot see anything..just feel and feel and still feel...then search for people inside...then after training the encik say...he just happy happy say got people inside....feel so what...hai...but still part of training....TML BAPT...die ar....hope my air won't run out....hahaha...k la that all for today...strength left55%...

..Firefighting course SIONG but SHIOK..

and I miss you already

7:31 PM

10/1/07

**Today is my dream firefighting course day 1...At first when we arrived at CDA we do not know where to report as we do not know what is lecture room 5..But luckily there was CD personnel to guide us to the room...
Well we have the course briefing...quite standard for all the course at CDA....tell us what the dos and Dons...then we go to training area to do our pumper equipment familiarizes and also lesson on breaking tool.. The familiarizes part was ok...ask quite afew question of the pumper and station life all that..Today then I know how the respond firecall in the station...hahaha...well i do not know that everyone is fighting to go on firecall...hahaha...
Then was the breaking tool....the helmet so what la...cover my view....but the tool was fun la...actually the fact is we just break things lo...cant imagine if the breaking tool is use on my door....the door will really break la...
then in the afternoon was E -learning...learn about high-rise firefighting...nozzle and type of spray all that...the time given was so much that i go through the whole thing 2 time la...what DOPL,SCPL and lots and lots of stuff....hahaha...
then after that go BA training...that one was the tried part la...wear ll the fire suit all that....then oh shit...I use 140 bar of air when i suppose to use 100 bar...must train to control my breathing liao....if not Thursday will have problem having the BAPT....I will do it....this 2 days will train to control my breathing....as tml i also have BA training....ya....then after that went home liao lo...but with a different boot....yes yes yes..we can wear top boot(fire boot)home...hahaha...k la...going slp now...tml ar...if not enough rest tonight..tml will die ar...hahaha.....**

..FireFighting Course SIONG but SHIOK..

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9:02 PM