5/17/08
**i suddenly feel so helpless in this world..i lost all sense of direction...i don know where to go...what i can do..beside waiting...i realli don know what is going on...the feeling of being lost in a jungle , the fear in my heart is adding day by day...I reali hope everything get well as soon as possible.This time, i am reali scare...this is the first time i am so scare in life...i don know why...is the fear that is always in my heart running here and there..haix..
well let talk about others thing ba..well on friday get to know the new i am not selected to be the contingent commander for this year ndp..well yes...indeed i was very sad..well is kinda of disappointed ba...haha..realli hope to be the commander..but never mind , now i go for the ndp drill instructor..cos still in ndp ma...so still the same just that roles change ba..hahhaa...
well than went to ncdcc unit training...well was in charge in giving first aid test..well 20 pass and 3 fail..not so bad...still can improve..
than went to cpr course today again..the cadets was pretty ok..learn quite fast for most of them..just some that have a hack care mindset..fail and don wan to try anymore..i hate cadets with this kind of mindset..u all must change..if nt in life, if u fall u will never be able to stand up again...haix...
don feel like writing anymore now...see next post ba..**
and I miss you already
11:45 PM
