5/13/08
**yesterday did not went to sch, cos very tired.hahaha..slp until 3 plus than wake up..than better still...work cancel...so just slack at home the whole watch and watch show....but at night gt go for running...well it good...run circle green for 2 round..hahaha..than reach home le continue with my weight training..well need to train train and train..encik wan put me and vic become PTI...omg..i this kind of shit fitness..kena this duty...will die...that y must train train and train...but it good also la..train be4 ns..hahaha...than today leh..go sch lo...stupid problem la...even the faci dont know what the 6p talking abt..how...what to do.. in rp..this is life..must face it lo...no choice...haiz....finally gt abit feel that going to rp is a wrong choice...learning is so not real in rp...but if i don go rp, it do not give me the chance to have so much time in ncdcc...what should i do...or perhaps what i can do?it too late to change sch now...it too late to said i am regret...i just have to go on and continue in rp...if i get the chance to go into uni, than we will see how ba...there is always a way..hahaha...
well after sch,go talk together with clsmate lo..hahaha..finally after today talk ..i clear my ce point..but still must rmb to write rj first...if not i will still need to go for one more talk...hahaha..cannot waste this chance ar...hahaha...
sometime what i am aiming for in life really...i realli don know...what happen to all my goal in life...where is my stand in life..am i a good person...i am realli quite lost now...everyday what am i doing...is it realli for the future or i am just doing what is need for today...is this life...where and what is the meaning...why cant i find it...what i am thinking everyday...am i just wasting my time...somehow i don know...
but anyway i think what i can do now is to just carry on my life as per normal...that for me may be a only way ba..hahaha...anyway tml i am going to evg to teach sec 1 first aid..well so long never see my cadet le..don know how they grow..hahaha...**
..Life should be carry on with COURAGE..
and I miss you already
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