**today is wed.. so no sch..stay at home..alone...whenever i am alone..i start to think of alot of thing..good and bad..maybe i like to think too much..well i am that kind of person..even watching a show...i can think of lots of thing..well the show that i am watching is justices bao...

a very very old show..indeed bring back alot of memory..when i was young..i like to watch this show alot.. watch ho the bad guy was caught even after they use so much efforts in covering everything up...hahaha....but alot of time..this bad guy do it because of greed, money, power, and sometime their love one...of course those who do it for greed, money and power should not be spare..those who do it for love...we should see the case first before we make an comments...hahaha...sound like a old man huh...hahaha..

well indeed i am thinking too much...maybe...but this love is realli very powerful...i can make a person feel so happy but it can also make a person feel like hell...it can save but it can also kill..it can heal but also hurt...but still love in my heart is always the first place...i don know why..pls don ask me..i also don know...hahaha...i am crazy..hahaha...

anyway this is life...whenever there are pro there are con..no one is perfect nothing is perfect...hahaha...it seem that it had been quite some time i talk about life...maybe i have a feeling of a old man now..hahhaa...anyway today i got study hor...hahaha..cos tml is ut ma..hai..from now on..every week gt ut..so sad la..hate rp system...y it must be like this...lol...rp seem so stress but it also seem slack..it seem easy but is also seem hard...what is the real rp...only the student in rp can decide for themself...for mi..i cant decide...hahaha..than went out with my grand to buy household item..like long long time never go out with her liao..today is really a day for mi and my grand..hahhaa...anyway going to slp now...well upload some pic taken some time ago...hahaha..enjoy..**


"Wine" that we drink


Group photo be4 BB.hahaha
wasted...cannot finish it...lol..谁能摆脱人世间的悲哀

**today I very very very very sleepy and boring... There is no life in RP...everyday do the same thing...wake up go sch...get problem break..do worksheet break..do ppt , than present..than go home...so sian...

than on sat went to NDP rehearsal again..
that day super sian lo...need to wait for the bus for 1 hour plus...the bus go to the wrong place...hai....lol....than wait and wait and wait...be4 the bus come, all sleeping already..lol...than reach there need to report to our holding area suntec...than need to walk to the platform...hahaha for the first rehearsal...just march in do some drill than march out liao....than went back to suntec all the way wait until 5 plus..than now not walk there liao wor...change to march from suntec all the way to platform..lol..so many ppl are taking photo....like we do free show like that...lol..than they do the very first combine rehearsal..haha..all GOH are in their NO.1 uniform..haha..than talk with head ops about evg NO.1 request..and she said it is ok..hahaha..well done...hahaha...can wear NO.1 liao..hahaha..once in a lifetime....hhaha...

than on sunday go to derek hus, cos on sat i asked my bro wanna come my hus anot ma..than derek say go his hus lo...than we just go lo...haha..it fun man at his hus...alot of thing to play..lol...at first go there all very hardworking..study study and study..than i do my ncdcc thing...than after that ws come liao..omg..everybody start to fun..hahaha...alex and ws was playin dota..than me,derek,jw was playing UNO attack..so lame right....than ruyi also join us after awhile...hahaha..after that we play the Big2... then jw win 5 in a row..lol..hai..sad la..hahhaa...than after that have a craping session..hahaha...and ruyi kena eaten by alex...so ruyi u come out le ma?hahaha..
than after that went to 883 go meet ricky and jean..they last day work liao...rich le man..ricky that it ..everything on yours...hahaha...**

**well well well, 4 day never post le..hahaha...not that i don wan post la..no time..i busy man ma...well today is also the end of the first week of school...first week of school is really a painful exp to me..omg...everyday wake up..first ting come into my mind is that should i go to school anot...hai...lol..well in the end still got go la..cos i guai ma...what to do no need praise me de...hahaha..^_^..today just found out that our CA topic have a change of faci..at first tot that he was just taking over one day..but who know he is taking over for the rest of the sem..hai..quite sad and also happy at the same thing...well miss the old faci becos he is not those hardcore PBL faci...he will explain and do all the wroking with us if we do not know...but for the new faci, he do not do it..but the new faci was a very flexible...he is a new comer...so can bully??hahaha..lol..jkjk..than yesterday jw said wan come my hus wor..i tot he wan rape mi...hahaha...actually is wan me help him do his blog..WOW...jw got blog..everyone pls view...it is in my link..go ahead...me and jw disign de wor...hahaha...well anyway let talk about this week what did i do ba..

On tue, was a hell man...waking up for school was a real hell for mi..lol...but anyway went to sch and have the DE faci...lol...topic was ok...not very difficult...still can understand can do...hahaha.than jw said very boring wor..so i asked him come my hus play dota..lol..we play all the map that we never play be4..we try everything..all the map in my dota..hahah...but not all map play full la..we not fun than change map liao..than play all the way until night lo...hahaha..

than ON wed,morning still need wake up earli...hai...so sad la...no need sch still need wake up earli..hai...cos need to go conduct CD quiz training...hai...what to do..i in-charge..hahaha..than go to sch...Wat the......the school cannot use ..close...sian lo....my mdm never tell mi..in the end i bring my cadets go 846 my slack place to train...hahaha..than have a test , lesson and interview with them...well they put in lots of effort becos from their test result. i can see that they really got study to prepare themself for the training...but sad to said i can only chooose 3 out of 4..hai..so sry to the one that is not choosen but pls don give up...work harder...ok...
than went home and have a good afternoon nap..too tired le...hahaha..than at night went to play bb..lol..onli mi,jw,ruyi and mei mei..oh no is meh meh..hahaha..mei mei= meh meh..well it was fun althouh there is onl 4 of us..we sing and play ABC at the same time..so fun..hahaha...

ON thurs, today although i still need to force myself to wake up form my comforable bed...but today is the day the i hope the most..becos after school i can see her...so went to school in a very happy mood...and the problem of the day is also ok...hahaha...can do can do...cos faci got recap the thing we learn be4 the holiday hence refresh liao..so know how to do lo...hahaha..
than get a sms from her..she is lost..lol...i call her immediately..haha..than actually they just one road away from ruyi blk..than after school fly to ruyi hus..not becos of ruyi wor..is becos can see her...hahaha...than at night went to play bb together..and i teach her how to shoot ..hahaha...well done..and during the match she scored...hahaha...well done..i know u can do it...^_^..and hope u enjoy the day yesterday...smile always...^^..

well that all for now...tml goin to ndo so must rest earli wor...hahaha..good nite!!!**

**3 day ago, I once again drop into the well that I had climb out from...once again, i felt the pain of thousand of knife piecing into my heart and body..to be true I am once again hurt deeply...there are thousand of wound on my body, my heart is in thousand of pieces..if you see this , pls don feel guilty becos i already know this may be one of the ending.. why is love to me so important,that a question i really wanted to find out.really..i don know why, because of love, it make me so painful...it kill me...am i a good guy?...i don know...i understand that we cannot change another person to love us, we can only accept other people love...i agree but i hate it...but this is the fact. this is the world...there are nothing i can do...i am feeling helpless and painful.... but from this events, it once again prove the worthiness of my 4 best friends...my 3 brothers Derek,Ricky , Jia Wei and ruyi...when they get to know abt the matter..all of them try their best to contact me...but at that point of the time, i did not answer them..i am sry guys...becos i realli don know what to said...but at last , i do not want them to worry, i reply them...sry guys... but brothers thanks for talking to me...thanks...although i smile...but i am not sure am i realli happy in my heart...i can't feel the happiness...haha...i am crazy...lol... but life still need to go on..and i promise her already...so i will be strong and continue the path that i am taking...i promise and last sat, i went for NDP rehearsal as a drill instructor...at first i tot that the view at there was nice..in the end went there..omg...construction site.. hai..spoil everything...but anyway it is a eye-opener to me...and walking on the floating platform was a great feeling...lol..sound retard...but really, thinking of i am training the contingent for the whole nation to see..it make me feel great... saw the red beret GOH..omg ....all commando..lol...their drill is super super good...no wonder is goh...hahaha..sound retard again.... anyway taken sound photo so have a look ba.. than today was the first day of school...school reopen le...haix...so fast..2 week of holiday just pass like that...what had i been doing for this 2 week...i also don know..lol...the mood of the class today is still holiday mood...everyone in the cls are so restless...even the most hardworking guy is slpin..omg..and the stupid application..so many bugs..than i do liao..don know is right or wrong..lol...hai..than today faci said he going reservist..than somebody will take over him for 3 week...so older guy...hai...don know who is it..and is he good anot...later happy happy ask this ask that..than siao liao lo...hai..well going to slp now... tml gt sch again...**

..My body is hurt, my heart is broken, my soul is lost..

**hahaha..after so long never blog..finally blog again...well its nt that i don wan blog...yesterday i wan blog de..but blog until half..i fall alslp...well what to do..too tired le ma..hahaha..and well do quite alot of thing this week..hahah..pack of thing...and it fun and interesting...well on monday i went for my sec 2 cadet ATC...well first time camp in changi camp site...feel abit strange...but it is a good exp...hahaha..well first day do there cadets are doing all the height elements...well and i become the belayer..haha...belaying is fun but tireing...it nearly kill mi..wll actually not so bad la..it fun la...but responsible very big..cos cadets life is in my hand...if i let go..the cadet will just fall and die...so don play play ar..haahha...than at the end of the day..my hand become like jelly...lol...hahaha..than at night was the campfire...waa so good no need prepare...the stuff there help us build the thing liao...so good...hahaa..but the cadets at first sian sian one..than all the CLTs come and we do stupid stupid thing la...and finally we bring up the spirit...hahaha...it fun la...finally campfire are so fun..hahaha...than at night, we had the CLTs party..well actually not party la...cos everybody was very tired than awhile all go slp liao..hahaha..but slp is slp la...the plane ar..every 15 min it come ZOOOOOOOOOOO,,than it ZOOOOOOOO again and again....haiz.....but in the end still can slp la...cos realli too tired le...hahaha...
than second day is water activity...than i go kayaking..waa..the wave ar..power ar...can push me here and there...super rough....omg..and i capsize wor..not once but twice...not because i not balance...cos i getting off the kayak than the wave push the cadets kayak and hit me...what the hell..than i cap...haiz...so ps..hahaha...but nevertheless.. it was fun la..ATC...hope to go again...hahaha...
then come back le..slp until night ar....too tired le..hahaha..
than on wed go bugis with derek , Jw and ricky..at first said go there buy handphone poach, shirt and pant..but in the end see nothing we like...hahaha..gt la..derek and ricky get their handphone poach...than me and jw and ricky buy watch..super nice lo..the watch...hahaha...but my wisdom tooth was super pain lo...omg...than in the end cannot stand it...than never shop with jw and derek when reach woodland..faster go back home and rest le...than take a nap and get a worse nightmare in life...i don wan it to be true..haix......
than today wake up sms her, she told me she feel super weak..omg..i so wry la...faster go down find her..than in the end she ok le...well done..she recover le...so happy..but not fully yet...sickness will come back de...so wry that her sickness will come back..haiz...sickness pls don come back...
as long as you r happy, i can do anything for u...^_^...**

..Can I be the Guardian.Angel.Tiamo..

**hahaha...afew day never blog le...cos too busy le...hahaha...this few day so happy..realli very happy especially today..^_^..hahaha..well let start from Tue ba...Tue went to the first attachment for my L1...hahaha..so fun.....the trainee are a batch of good students..although they are very playful...but what important to me is that they had the mind set to learn..I don mind teach someone who are slow, but I mind to teach ppl with wrong mindset...hahaha...teaching them is fun...well first day first thing to do is capsize drill for them..well lots of them very panic...haven tap then push them self out liao...actually understandable cos it is their first time.. than next teach forward and back paddle...hahaha..than all other basic stoke lo..then need to go back alone..cos LEO need go earli...hai...don even know what bus to take...check the board like siao..hahaha...
than on wed, go alone..cos cant meet leo..he stay too far liao..than take the bus that i check on the net...well don dare to slp on bus although very tired...hahaha..cos i DON KNOW which bus stop to alight...hahahahabut never mind cos in the end..i reach the place...well wed is their testing day...than omg i was call a MR no smile...what the..my trainee said i never smile de...than i was like duh....well maybe ba..i also did not notice it myself..hahaha...
than do some activity with them, do a short paddle of 2 km than we had a mass capsize...we break into boy and gals than fight la...the boy mass cap liao...15 min pass le...i still see no one on the kayak..than i was like lying on the kayak la...waiting and waiting...than after 30min plus plus...still no one up...than we need to do mass rescue...5 coaches rescue all...hai...what to do...buck up guy...learn rescue properly..u will need it de...
than the gals power ar...got gals power...they complete their rescue...we coaches just sit back and relax..than one very funny...she is using junior deck than wan rescue a deck..than she was like shouting" I am sinking I am sinking..."hahaha..entertaining sia...hahaha..ohh...cannot laugh..hahaha...
and i shouted at a guy when he was doing rescue..cos his mindset is WRONG...rescue is not a fun thing...when doing it..be serious...it life and death matter....hai...
well but overall they are still good..hahaha..
than today was a good day for me...morning wake up went to GYM with Ricky, JW, Ruyi,James and Jean..well than do some work up cos quite tired don feel like doing alot of thing...thanafter that went swimming...wow..ricky get down the water...hahaha...it good...than we play play play..and JW make me BLEED..lol..for more details pls find him ..lol...when when get up that time super fun...ricky was push down 8 TIMES...hahahaha..well he is the toy of the day...hahaha...
than after that went to play basketball...today basketball was fun...alot and alot of people come...
And you make my day^_^...**

..Can I be the Guardian.Angel.Tiamo..

Name:Benjamin Peh
Age:19
Horoscope: Scorpio

Present
I am a ....
*Senior Cadet Lieutenant*
*Certify Level 1 Kayaking Coach*
*First Aider*
*Certify Basic Cardiac Life Support Instructor*
*Grad From RP,Diploma in Biomedical Electronics*
因为寂寞而想你，
因为想你而更寂寞，
所以，我一天比一天寂寞，
一天比一天想你。

ExiT

*Adelin*
*Alex*
*Akmal*
*Bifei*
*Iris*
*Jeanette*
*Jun Xian*
*JW aka Lance aka "L"*
*My Unit's Blog*
*My Sec 1 Unit's Blog*
*My Sec 2 Unit's Blog*
*My Ex Unit's Blog*
*NCDCC*
*Ricky*
*Rulin*
*Ruyi*
*Ryan*
*Samantha*
*SCDF*
*Shi Hui*
*ShuLin*
*ShuQi*
*SiewMei*
*Victor*
*Wubinwushu*
*Xinrui*
*Xinrui's story*
*Yu Ting*
*Zahirah*