Gone forever!?

6/16/08

**3 day ago, I once again drop into the well that I had climb out from...once again, i felt the pain of thousand of knife piecing into my heart and body..to be true I am once again hurt deeply...there are thousand of wound on my body, my heart is in thousand of pieces..if you see this , pls don feel guilty becos i already know this may be one of the ending.. why is love to me so important,that a question i really wanted to find out.really..i don know why, because of love, it make me so painful...it kill me...am i a good guy?...i don know...i understand that we cannot change another person to love us, we can only accept other people love...i agree but i hate it...but this is the fact. this is the world...there are nothing i can do...i am feeling helpless and painful.... but from this events, it once again prove the worthiness of my 4 best friends...my 3 brothers Derek,Ricky , Jia Wei and ruyi...when they get to know abt the matter..all of them try their best to contact me...but at that point of the time, i did not answer them..i am sry guys...becos i realli don know what to said...but at last , i do not want them to worry, i reply them...sry guys... but brothers thanks for talking to me...thanks...although i smile...but i am not sure am i realli happy in my heart...i can't feel the happiness...haha...i am crazy...lol... but life still need to go on..and i promise her already...so i will be strong and continue the path that i am taking...i promise and last sat, i went for NDP rehearsal as a drill instructor...at first i tot that the view at there was nice..in the end went there..omg...construction site.. hai..spoil everything...but anyway it is a eye-opener to me...and walking on the floating platform was a great feeling...lol..sound retard...but really, thinking of i am training the contingent for the whole nation to see..it make me feel great... saw the red beret GOH..omg ....all commando..lol...their drill is super super good...no wonder is goh...hahaha..sound retard again.... anyway taken sound photo so have a look ba.. than today was the first day of school...school reopen le...haix...so fast..2 week of holiday just pass like that...what had i been doing for this 2 week...i also don know..lol...the mood of the class today is still holiday mood...everyone in the cls are so restless...even the most hardworking guy is slpin..omg..and the stupid application..so many bugs..than i do liao..don know is right or wrong..lol...hai..than today faci said he going reservist..than somebody will take over him for 3 week...so older guy...hai...don know who is it..and is he good anot...later happy happy ask this ask that..than siao liao lo...hai..well going to slp now... tml gt sch again...**

..My body is hurt, my heart is broken, my soul is lost..

and I miss you already

10:55 PM

DreameR

Name:Benjamin Peh
Age:19
Horoscope: Scorpio

Present
I am a ....
*Senior Cadet Lieutenant*
*Certify Level 1 Kayaking Coach*
*First Aider*
*Certify Basic Cardiac Life Support Instructor*
*Grad From RP,Diploma in Biomedical Electronics*
因为寂寞而想你，
因为想你而更寂寞，
所以，我一天比一天寂寞，
一天比一天想你。

TalK

HistorY

Past
*Senior in Wubinwuhshu*
*AVA & Photographer*
*Chinese tutor*
*Student of Qihua Pri*
*Student of EVGSS*

WisheS

Dream is something that can never true,
so I don't dream but I wish..

*Stay with you*
*Become a Firefighter*
*Pass my Diploma*
*Slim Down*
*Earn $$$*
*Become a better person*
*Be happy*

MemorieS

April 2007
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