7/30/08
**my soul and body is separated , really, I could not think of anything right now. there are no reply just a new coming saying that need to concentrate on doing thing.
but how can i really don worry about anything. it is impossible...new said that it is not my fault..but how do i stop myself in thinking that it is not my fault..i feel so useless..cant even compare to my brothers..he can get the chance in seeing them...at least a chance..but me..there are nothing i can do other than wait...what the hell is happening...why...why.. all the thing is like running out of control...realli...why cant i be like you, getting the chance..i hate myself for being so powerless...really...i am not blaming you...i just hate myself...
and I am very worry abt u...do u know that...??haix..
getting tired in life..really...i am too tired le...sooner or later.. i am going to break down into pieces...and than smaller pieces..and than disappear into the air...just like that...my emotion , my wish, it make me into someone i don know..it make me into a guy that i cant control..my temper change, my life change..it is totally a mess...i am sick and tired of it..realli...
I wan to be the me in the past..the good me...the one with positive thinking , the one that not scare of anything, the one who don't care have or dont have...but i am in darkness now...**
..I just hope u r ok..
and I miss you already
11:50 PM
