**yo yo yo... hahahah... i am siao now...now soo sian...just finish preparing my PP presentation ...cos tml is my PP presentation liao... so just now"rehearsal" abit...hahaha... sad i fail sia.. but never i must think positive..hahaha... I WILL PASS!!!...hehehe....
anyway just now go watch and support ricky for his basketball compeition.. I good right..hahaa..actually alot of people got go support.. like Jw, Wei song, Alex, Derek ,Weili and Shu Qi.. and some of ricky clsmate.. hahaha...well saw alot of pro today...they shoot and chop like nobody business..omg..hahaha.. must don know train until like how than can like them...hahaha..maybe i just focus on one ba... cannot focus on too many.. focus on becoming a good point guard...hahaha...but anyway... ricky is the captain of the team nia... hahaha... and they win 2 match... due to ..........(Cannot said out)hahahaha...for further information pls contact 61234567...hahahaha... but they lose the last match..sad.. but is ok .. cos we can see they try very very very hard...hahaha.... so jia you and train harder ricky... i will train with u de..wakakkaa...**

..Tml PP assessment, Jia You..

**long time never update... is not becos nothing to update.. is just becos i am toooo lazy le ma... and also tired...hahaha..well let see...hmmm.. oh ya.. my one week holiday start liao.. although now is already the second day of the holiday and sch going reopen next week.. so i must take this chance to realli enjoy myself... if not going to stress myself for another 8 week be4 getting a 2- 3 week break... hahaha.... anyway.. yesterday first day of holiday, went to settle my ncdcc nco camp ration stuff
have my snco to come and help to buy the stuff...well and it was good my total budget was less than what i calculated.. well done...meaning can go in to ncd funds liao.. more money for ncd..haahhaand than went to woodland check point there..to buy myself a shoes...hehehe... cos shoes spoil liao... no choice...haiz.....hahaha... but the new shoes was nice..hehehe... i like it alot... wakakakaka....
than I finally pass my kayaking Level 1 coach test.. and I am now a ceritify coach...hehehe....
can earn money liao.. lol..jk la... cannot becos of money than become coach.. must becos of passion...hahaha... anyway i feel that my second day of test is much much much better than the first day one.. me and vic realli improve alot on our skills, presentation and control in the water... Mr goh did not realli add on alot.. meaning we did the correct thing.. but of cos, there are still room for improvment for me.. a big room i would said.. and i am going to fill up the room by experinence .. coaching different age group at different areas.. will increase my presentation skil on water... ^^**

..Life Is Good..

**Haix... it monday again....first day of the week is always so sian.. due to the faci la... wake up liao... thinking want to go to sch anot...becos today is DE..than the faci super wat wan lo... haix..than today he LATE leh..hahaha... always tell us not to be late cos is not CONSTRUCTIVE...u are the one not constructive la... talk so muchwaste ourtime... than realli don know why the faci like to piss me off every week.. every week also like that... don know wat he thinking also..hahahah... than after that go back home... rest...than go bb liao.... today onli jw, ricky, derek and weili come... well but overall was a fun one lo..hahahah... well let talk about my sat coach test ba..
well i think this is the worse test i ever take... i perform badly.. must be true to myself... maybe i not up to standard yet ba.... but my afi said... is becos we are still new...after some time confirm can de... we cant conpare outself to the pro coach..they teach don know throusand of 1 star course already... we cannot fight with them de... wat we lack is just exp.. once we have it.. we can also be as good as them de.. i also believe what he said.
but after some thinking. . I feel that i should list out my pro and con...
first the con
1. It is very messy, in the sense that we did not check the place throughly.
2. We forget that they are a first timer at kalland.
3. We expect them higher than they should be.
4. No coordination between me and victor.
5. We divide the course too observe already, we should help one another out.
6. When explain of skill, should add in reason to why do we do this and not that,
7. Did not check manpower from point to point. We assume WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!

Well than the Pro
1. I think only the sweep stroke Me and victor did well. BEcos we help one another..
2. Interacting which student is average, but still can improve.
3. I feel that my introduction was ok, I explain the part all that. But should slow down.

Actually i think my pro is very little. there are alot of room for improvement ...I wan to improve myself.. to become a beter coach.. I really want to impart my skill to other in a fun and interesting way..
I should put myself in diferent persective.. So that i can see bigger picture..I should also be more observater.... hmm too much thing to improve man.. haiz...
on land i am a confident officers...can teach fairly well... but on water.. like shit.. haiz...why why why.. **

..Time to IMPROVE..

**I miss u.. is like i want to see u, i want to talk to u, i want to listen to your voice.hahaha... haiz..hmm should change my mindset... hahah...at least still got sms hor..hehe... i am realli happy that i was reassure.. hahahaha.. ok stop all my this kind of thing..
write post time..hehehe...well actually wanted to blog on sunday de.. but monday got test ar..than sunday reach home liao already 10 plus than still need to study for test.. by the time study finish already 12 plus liao.. so very tired than never blog lo..
sunday was a fun day man... is derek 21st birthday... sooo good to have ppl celebrating birthday for u... hahaha.. come to think of it.. for my past 17th years.. no one had ever done that for me..hahhaa.. anyway we was suppose to meet earli to continue doing derek birthday card..which was like 1/4 done only on sat night.. jw and ricky come my hus do lo.. and jw ton at my hus..than wake up around 11 ba... cos really too tired le... than do the card until like 4 ba..the other also got help do.. but 3 plus they go derek hus first.. cos we drag till too late liao...
than left me, ruyi and mei mei do the card... hahaha..the card was pretty nice.. in the past i help do card was like abit only.. this card.. i do quite alot ba..hahahaha..than we went to derek hus give him surprise lo..
1st surprise is the cooking of noodle.. hope he never run toliet after eating our master piece
2nd surprise was the card, well he was smart and in 5 min he find it all.
3rd surprise would be the ruyi leg injure ba... cos we all bluff him.. and he was soo wry and keep rushing us to go faster la...
last surprise was the 8 chinese word on each of our back..hahaha
hope that you can rmb it for life wor..hehehe...
than monday go to sch was like shit.. soooo tired...somemore got UT.. haiz.. i really hate the monday DE faci... he was like everything also correct us.. said wat use pri 1 eng to explain.. than he demo.. but we don even know what he talking.. so how can a pri 1 student understand..and keep saying never assume all that.. stupid lo.. was realli piss off by him.. everyweek first team present de confirm die de lo..drag till like 45 min..wth....haiz.... than ask him question for UT... said wat.. oh now is problem 6 i wont teach the other weeks problem.. lol.. where got cher like that one lo... than UT was like die lo..haiz.....
well feel that every wed go to sch is the most tired day.. don know why.. is it the cls or wat...hahaha.. realli lo..everyone in the cls was like slping during the breakout... haiz... never mind tahan more 10 more week.. than year 3 got one sem can have 3 day of sch liao..hehehe....good good..
ok la.. i go rest liao.. SICK!!!.. this few weeks i super weak lo.. don know why also..**

..Miss u..

**i am crazy, i am emoin, i am thinking too much, i am lacking in trust...this are all my weakness ba.. after thinking through one whole night.. i still cant find why am i like that..is it because of my father n my mother.. becos of their fail relationship which first put me in a selffish person.. than my own failure relationship which cause me to lose the trust i have...i don know...i feel like i am totally a bad person.. a person without confident, a person without kind heart..i am not a good guy...a lot of time i try to change myself.. but whenever a situation arise.. i become my own self... mayb i did not put in enough efforts ba...y do i feel so alone in this world.. how come...i always ask other to be independan.. but am i?..i don know...
i really wan to change myself... i wan to be a good person.. with trust to my love one..
I am willing to change.. becos i know ppl without trust are lonely and selfish.. is not healthy...
also i must learn not to think too much..eveything will have cause and effect... so if i start from the right cause.. not matter what is the effect i will still feel that is alright becos i try my best...**

..Trust & Courage here i come..

** Lost in a road call life.... hmm.. really ba.. a movement, a word,a statement can affect me.
my moods, my thinking, my feeling... everything of me is like being affected... why is it so powerful...hahaha.. think i am in a deep deep well.. trying to come out.. but everytime... i fail...hahahaha...
you let me see the hope sometime.. and take the hope away sometime.. or is it i think too much.. hahha.. i feel that i think too much..hahaha...maybe becos of fear ba... i was hurt once.. deeply hurt once...wound heal, pain gone... but scar is 4ever...
but I AM NOT GIVING UP...that is for sure.. hahahaa..
anyway today go cwp with derek...hahaha.. one whole week stay at home.. is a good time to go out with bro le...well ricky and jw still working.. but today last day liao.. meaning from tml can play bb le...hehehe.... i wan to play bb....today shopping was a good one.. walk the whole cwp.. realli the whole cwp.. and derek buy a digital cam.. 10.1 megapexi , wide angle len, anti blur function, imge stable,5 time zoom in... waa that great.. and wat more.. free 4gb memory card, tripot and pounh.. great deal man...about $429...hahaha...
at first he was thinking of buying SLR man..hahaha.. but no $$$ la... than he said next time maybe will buy..hehehe...
hmm tml UT again.. is the psycolo... haiz.. soo difficult.. confirm die de... soo many theory to study.. understand la.. but there is no confirm answer de leh... depend on situation.. differ situation diff answer... really test your brain man. i think tml after UT i will be quite sad man and lifeless.. cos all my braincell will die... hahahahaa....**

..Courage is what I need..

Name:Benjamin Peh
Age:19
Horoscope: Scorpio

Present
I am a ....
*Senior Cadet Lieutenant*
*Certify Level 1 Kayaking Coach*
*First Aider*
*Certify Basic Cardiac Life Support Instructor*
*Grad From RP,Diploma in Biomedical Electronics*
因为寂寞而想你，
因为想你而更寂寞，
所以，我一天比一天寂寞，
一天比一天想你。

ExiT

*Adelin*
*Alex*
*Akmal*
*Bifei*
*Iris*
*Jeanette*
*Jun Xian*
*JW aka Lance aka "L"*
*My Unit's Blog*
*My Sec 1 Unit's Blog*
*My Sec 2 Unit's Blog*
*My Ex Unit's Blog*
*NCDCC*
*Ricky*
*Rulin*
*Ruyi*
*Ryan*
*Samantha*
*SCDF*
*Shi Hui*
*ShuLin*
*ShuQi*
*SiewMei*
*Victor*
*Wubinwushu*
*Xinrui*
*Xinrui's story*
*Yu Ting*
*Zahirah*