10/8/08
**i am crazy, i am emoin, i am thinking too much, i am lacking in trust...this are all my weakness ba.. after thinking through one whole night.. i still cant find why am i like that..is it because of my father n my mother.. becos of their fail relationship which first put me in a selffish person.. than my own failure relationship which cause me to lose the trust i have...i don know...i feel like i am totally a bad person.. a person without confident, a person without kind heart..i am not a good guy...a lot of time i try to change myself.. but whenever a situation arise.. i become my own self... mayb i did not put in enough efforts ba...y do i feel so alone in this world.. how come...i always ask other to be independan.. but am i?..i don know...
i really wan to change myself... i wan to be a good person.. with trust to my love one..
I am willing to change.. becos i know ppl without trust are lonely and selfish.. is not healthy...
also i must learn not to think too much..eveything will have cause and effect... so if i start from the right cause.. not matter what is the effect i will still feel that is alright becos i try my best...**
..Trust & Courage here i come..
and I miss you already
2:26 PM
